260809 – Recap – Determining the Truth

Dueling Gurus and the Doctrine of Christ

Zion, Agency, and the Question Behind Every Question: How Do We Know the True Voice?

Christos Fellowship — Renaissance Ministries

Fellowship Essay · 9 August 2026 · A follow-up to “Quietism Is Not More Light” (3 August 2026)

Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. — 1 John 4:1

I. Where We Left Off

Last week’s essay argued that the wait-for-divine-initiation teaching is quietism — an old error under a new name — and that the Great Commission is a standing order to every disciple. This week’s meeting was the fellowship’s living response to that essay. Leonard presented the fuller frame of the Covenant Christian movement’s teaching; Michael pressed with a barrage of questions; Charlie, Susan, and Isak each brought a piece of the answer.

Leonard’s opening move was a clarification: the charge of quietism, he said, rests on a misunderstanding. “We’re not being quiet. We’re trying to get out there for people to see it and to respond, but we’re not being pushy. We’re not knocking on doors.” The movement’s method is presence and availability — the seal on the hat, the cashier at the Golden Corral who noticed and asked — rather than a campaign. I receive the clarification in good faith, and I will return at the end to examine whether it answers the essay’s argument or restates the position the essay examined. But first, the frame Leonard laid out deserves a fair hearing, because we cannot weigh what we have not honestly heard.

II. The Frame Presented: Zion, the Gathering, and the Ten Talks

Leonard recounted the movement’s founding commission: Denver Snuffer, he told us, was directed by the Lord to deliver ten talks — ten parts of one talk — at ten locations along the “Mormon corridor,” with the message intended first for the Latter-day Saints and then for the wider Christian world. The subject was Zion: the concept, drawn through Joseph Smith’s teaching, of a people of one heart and one mind, dwelling in righteousness, with no poor among them. Leonard traced the lineage: Enoch’s city of righteousness, taken up before the flood because the earth was not ready; a second city under Melchizedek (identified in this teaching with Shem); and, in the last days, the necessity of a Zion people prepared on earth to receive these cities at their return, lest the earth be smitten. The New Jerusalem, in this telling, will be established in the Western Hemisphere, will grow into Zion, and Christ Himself will come to His temple in the midst of that people.

I asked the clarifying questions: Is the taken-up Zion a biblical concept? Answer: “It depends on which Bible you’re talking about” — the concept in its full form comes through Joseph Smith’s revelation, though the word Zion appears throughout the King James text (Charlie counted 153 occurrences). Is this the New Jerusalem of Revelation 21? Answer: yes and no — the New Jerusalem is the community; Zion is what it becomes when the ascended cities are reunited with the earthly one.

Two further claims from the presentation must be recorded:

  • First, Leonard corrected the standard account of Mormon origins: it was not Moroni who visited young Joseph, he said, but Nephi — and the change to “Moroni” was made later, “in our time, by our people.”
  • Second, he described the Joseph Smith Translation of the Bible: not a new Bible, he insisted, but a restoration of the original — the King James text plus corrections and additions Joseph was directed to make, which this fellowship’s movement has now assembled and printed. The example offered was Romans 13, where the change of a single word — the powers that be are “elders,” church government rather than civil government — “changes the whole meaning of it.”

I want the fellowship to see what I see in these two claims. Each one is a revision of a revision.

  • The Moroni/Nephi correction tells us that even the founding vision of the Restoration was corrupted in transmission by the Restoration’s own custodians, within living memory of the event.
  • The Romans 13 example tells us that a single word, altered on one man’s authority, is sufficient to invert the plain meaning of an apostle’s teaching that the whole church has read one way for two thousand years. Both claims depend on the same premise, which Leonard then stated openly, and which became the true subject of the meeting.

III. Entropy or Refinement: Two Theories of the Word

Leonard put the premise plainly: “History is always recorded by the victors… it becomes corrupted. It doesn’t become true… It’s always been entropy when it comes to knowledge. Knowledge has always been entropic rather than refining.” On this view, the Bible is a degraded signal — “plain and precious things” removed, the name of Christ stripped from the Old Testament — and the latter-day revelations are the restoration of the original broadcast.

Michael answered this with the historian’s craft. History is not simply entropic, he argued, because corruption is not the last word — correction is. The Nazis wrote the history of conquered Europe from 1940 to 1943; when they lost, that history did not stand. The bias of the victors is real, “endemic,” but the remedy is known to every honest historian: gather the accounts from both sides, from many sides, and compose them — like the blind men and the elephant, no single testimony is the animal, but the sum of testimonies approaches it. Bias is defeated not by finding one unbiased witness (there are none) but by multiplying witnesses whose biases cut in different directions.

Now notice what Michael has described, because it is precisely the architecture of the Bible, and precisely the argument I made to Leonard in this week’s written reply. The canon of the Bible is not one victor’s chronicle. It is forty-some authors across fifteen centuries — shepherds and kings, prisoners and physicians, fishermen and Pharisees — whose accounts were delivered through separate hands into separate communities that copied them in parallel across continents. An error introduced in one line of transmission is exposed by comparison with the others; that is why the manuscript evidence, thousands of copies deep, shows the text stable to within spelling and word order, with no doctrine hanging on any disputed reading. The children’s telephone game corrupts because it is serial and oral — one whisper, one chain, no checking. The Bible’s transmission is parallel and written — many chains, constant checking. Entropy is the fate of the single channel. The polyphonic canon is Michael’s elephant: many hands on the animal, composed.

And here is the point that must be pressed: the entropy argument, if it proves anything, proves most against the system it is deployed to defend. A revelation that passes through one man — however sincere — is the serial channel. One link, no parallel witnesses, no manuscript trail, no possibility of comparison. When the movement itself must correct its own founding vision (Nephi, not Moroni) within two centuries, it has demonstrated the entropy of the single channel on its own history. The argument Leonard raised against the Bible is the strongest argument against the alternative.

IV. Dueling Gurus: The Question of Discernment

From there the meeting arrived, as it had to, at the question beneath every question, and I gave it a name that Charlie and Isak improved into “dueling gurus.” We are not adjudicating Hinduism against Islam. We are weighing two claims within the house of those who name Christ: the historic faith, received through the polyphonic canon — and a succession of single-channel restorations, each claiming to correct the last. Joseph Smith corrected historic Christianity. The LDS institution, by Leonard’s own account, corrupted Joseph within a generation of his death — “it went off the rails very quickly” — building temples like idols and development deals around them. Denver Snuffer now corrects the LDS institution. Each restoration requires a new apostasy to justify itself. The pattern is not incidental; it is the logic of the single channel, which can be corrected only by another single channel, forever.  ***

Charlie named the stakes with the memory of Jonestown, and the deeper memory of every century’s men who marched under “God is on our side”: the stream of history is full of false prophets, and the price of following one is everything. His counsel — study, comparison, prayer, and constant vigilance, because “it doesn’t seem like God made this easy” — is the sober truth. Michael noted: many people say God has spoken to them; how does this one claimant earn the credibility the others are denied? Doesn’t God speak to each of us?***

The Bible’s own answer, which the fellowship converged on from three directions, is the test of fruits: “Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them” (Matthew 7:20). But last week’s essay showed why fruit must be assessed carefully here — growth under an anti-campaign doctrine is not fruit but recursion, since the anti-campaign posture is itself the recruitment mechanism. The fruit that counts is repentance, holiness, and Christ-dependence in the gathered — assessed on separate evidence. And to the test of fruits Scripture adds the test of the message: “though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed” (Galatians 1:8). The messenger’s sincerity, humility, and reluctance are not the test. Agreement with the deposit already delivered is the test. That standard is fixed, public, and checkable — which is exactly what a standard must be if the sheep are to know the voice of a stranger (John 10:5).

V. The Crusade Question and the Agency Answer

I put to Leonard the challenge that has struck me since I first encountered this movement, and I put it here for the record: if the Denver Snuffer revelation is the pure word — if historic Christianity is the corrupted signal and this is the restoration — then there should be no apology and no restraint. It should be a crusade. Everyone, everywhere, should be told, urgently, because nothing less is at stake than the true gospel. The movement’s own logic demands the very campaign its doctrine forbids.

Leonard’s answer was agency: “People have to choose… I can’t convert anyone. No man can convert another man. God has to do that. The Lord does that. The Lord goes and changes people… we’re waiting on the Lord to prepare His people.”

I want to honor what is true in this answer before showing what it does not answer. It is true that no man can convert another man. It is true that the increase belongs to God alone — “I have planted, Apollos watered; but God gave the increase” (1 Corinthians 3:6). It is true that agency is real and that most will not receive the word; the Lord Himself said the way is narrow and few find it (Matthew 7:14). Every word of this is historic Christian doctrine, held without supplement for two thousand years.

But observe what the argument actually proves. Agency explains why not all will accept the message. It says nothing about whether we should deliver it. The sower in the Lord’s parable knows that most of the seed will fall on path, rock, and thorn — and sows broadcast anyway, because the sowing is his office and the soil is not (Matthew 13:3-8). Paul knew agency as well as any man who ever preached — “our gospel is hid to them that are lost” (2 Corinthians 4:3) — and reasoned daily in the market with them that met with him (Acts 17:17). If the reality of agency justified withholding the campaign, it would have justified Paul’s silence; instead Paul said, “woe is unto me, if I preach not the gospel!” (1 Corinthians 9:16). Agency is the reason outcomes belong to God. It has never been the reason messengers stay home. So the clarification Leonard offered at the meeting’s start — “we’re not being quiet, we’re just not being pushy” — resolves into the same position the essay examined: presence without campaign, availability without initiative, the hat and the cashier but not the crusade. The label matters less than the substance, and the substance is unchanged: a standing order treated as awaiting activation. I leave last week’s four tests standing, and I commend them again to Leonard with the affection in which they were written.

VI. Isak’s Bread: The Chain of Neighbors

Isak brought the question down from the cosmic to the concrete, and his contribution deserves its own section. Wrestling with what the Commission asks of one person — surely not to be the street-corner pest that people flee, nor to carry the lunacy-inducing burden of personally saving seven billion — he offered a picture from the feeding of the five thousand: each of us provides for those directly around us, and the ones next to them do likewise, and the gospel moves as a chain reaction of neighbors rather than the heroic reach of one arm. “It’s not up to me to provide for everyone, but it’s up to me to provide for those around me.”

The picture is true and biblical: the faith did in fact cross the world largely through households, friendships, and scattered ordinary believers — “they that were scattered abroad went every where preaching the word” (Acts 8:4). And Isak is right that the Commission never assigns any single disciple the whole world; it assigns the whole church the whole world, and each member his portion. Two friendly amendments, offered as sharpening rather than correction. First, the chain of neighbors and the organized campaign are not rivals; Acts records both, side by side — the scattered believers gossiping the gospel and Paul’s planned itineraries, the household conversions and the daily disputation in the market. The body has hands and feet; a theology built on only one member is a body part, not a body. Second, on the naturalistic reading of the loaves — that the miracle was hearts opened to share their hidden provisions — I would hold the beauty of that picture without trading the text for it. The evangelists present a multiplication, and all four record it; the crowd sought Him the next day precisely because they “did eat of the loaves, and were filled” (John 6:26), and the Lord’s rebuke was not “you misunderstood the sharing” but that they sought bread rather than the Bread of Life. A God who cannot multiply loaves cannot raise the dead, and our whole hope hangs on the latter. But Isak’s instinct — that the miracle also teaches the economy of Zion, provision flowing neighbor to neighbor under the blessing of Christ — is not wrong. It is the application; the multiplication is the event.

VII. Where We Met: Relationship, Obedience, and the Doctrine of Christ

Now the meeting ground, because the meeting found one, and it was Susan who laid the first stone. Before any ministry, she said, must come the believer’s own relationship with God — ministry without relationship empties and drains and ends in walking away. And to the week’s running question — how do we know what is true among competing claims? — she brought the verse that reframes the whole inquiry: “If any man will do his will, he shall know of the doctrine, whether it be of God, or whether I speak of myself” (John 7:17). Knowledge of the doctrine is promised to the one who does the will — obedience is an organ of knowledge. She joined it to Psalm 111:10 — “a good understanding have all they that do his commandments” — and to John 1:12: “as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God.” The power is His; the frailty is ours; the doing is the path to the knowing.

Notice what Susan’s verses accomplish for the entire dispute. If understanding comes through doing His commandments, then the surest ground in a contest of revelations is the commands no one disputes — and the Great Commission is among them by every account, since even the movement Leonard follows agrees the word must go to all the world; the disagreement is over the manner. Do the will; the doctrine will clarify. This is also the answer to Michael’s question about how to choose among the claimants: begin with the commands held in common, obey them, and the promised understanding follows.

Leonard then made the proposal that I want to receive with both hands, because it is the week’s best fruit: the doctrine of Christ can unite us. “There’s only one person at that gate; He doesn’t employ anybody else.” Whatever else divides our libraries, he said, if we come together on who gives us life and who holds our salvation — believe Him, confess Him as Lord, follow Him — we can fellowship as one while we contend over the rest. And Susan’s picture of increments completed it: a soul comes to Christ by steps, each sincere step a springboard to the next, faith becoming obedience becoming understanding. This is the fellowship working as it was built to work: we did not paper over the dividing line — the line is the authority of Scripture against the authority of a living revelator, and this essay has not moved an inch on it — but we located the gate we all stand at, and the Gatekeeper we all confess.

VIII. The Baptism Coda: Authority and the Fruits of the Spirit

The meeting closed on baptism, and the exchange between Leonard and Susan was a small masterclass in exactly the difference between the two systems — conducted, notably, between two people raised in the same church.

Leonard argued from the Lord’s own example: Christ, needing nothing, sought out John — his cousin, “set apart” from infancy — and submitted to baptism; therefore the believer’s first act of obedience is baptism, and one should “find an authorized person” to perform the ordinance. He told the story of his own rebaptism in 2018, and told it movingly. Susan pressed the word authorized: the authority is not a paper trail, she argued, not an office or a lineage — it is Christ’s Spirit, and the credential of the baptizer is the fruits of the Spirit in his life. She pressed further: is water baptism a saving ordinance, as they were both taught, or an act of obedience — real, commanded, but not the mechanism of salvation, as the deathbed believer with no water and every fruit of the Spirit attests? Leonard, to his credit, moved toward her in real time: “if the person performing the ordinance understands what he’s doing… absolutely, I agree with that.”

For the record of this fellowship, the historic answer, which I hold: baptism is commanded — this very week I withdrew, under sound rebuke, my own speculative reading that “baptizing in the name” might mean immersion in the divine nature rather than water, and the full argument will appear in the forthcoming reply essay — but the water is the sign, not the power: “not the putting away of the filth of the flesh, but the answer of a good conscience toward God” (1 Peter 3:21). The thief on the cross entered Paradise unbaptized on the word of the Lord Himself (Luke 23:43). And on authority, Susan’s instinct is the Bible’s: Philip who baptized the Ethiopian was not of the Twelve; the scattered laymen of Acts 8 preached everywhere with no ordination but the Spirit; and the requirement of an “authorized” chain of ordinance is precisely the mediating structure that 1 Timothy 2:5 forecloses — one God, one mediator, the man Christ Jesus. Where the fruits of the Spirit are, there the authority is, for the Spirit is not given by paperwork.

IX. The Cultural Stakes: A Note on the Wall

I closed the meeting with a piece of cultural history, and I set it down here because it names why the campaign question is not academic. In 1947, in Everson v. Board of Education, the Supreme Court lifted a phrase from Thomas Jefferson’s 1802 letter to the Danbury Baptists — a letter assuring a worried religious minority that the state would not interfere with the church — and declared that the Constitution had erected “a wall of separation between church and state.” The phrase appears nowhere in the Constitution; the First Amendment restrains Congress from establishing religion or prohibiting its free exercise — a shield for the church, not a muzzle. Yet within a generation the inversion was complete: prayer stripped from the schools, faith privatized, and an educated nation persuaded that the wall is the Constitution’s most sacred clause. I have watched an intelligent, accomplished woman be genuinely shocked to learn the phrase is not in the document.

Set against this a scene from only six years before Everson: Roosevelt and Churchill, at the service where the Atlantic alliance was consecrated in 1941, standing together on a warship’s deck, singing “Onward, Christian Soldiers” — two heads of state, on film, unembarrassed. From that to “you can’t pray at the football game” in a single generation. This is the measure of how far and how fast a culture falls when the church accepts the muzzle — and it is why quietism, whatever its sincerity, arrives at the worst possible hour. The sanctification of the culture is the only remedy for the culture, and sanctification does not campaign for itself. Someone must go. That is not a distraction from the fellowship’s purpose, as I said in the meeting; the Mormon-versus-historic question, important as this essay shows it to be, is the proximate discussion — the ultimate work is a nation of godly character: children raised in the way they should go (Proverbs 22:6), households of godly men and women, and from them neighborhoods, and from them a government godly because its people are — which is Zion built the only way Zion has ever actually been built, one regenerate heart at a time. On that end — remarkably, wonderfully — Leonard and I are in full agreement. One heart and one mind, righteousness, and no poor among us: I have no quarrel with that city. My quarrel is only, and always, over which voice commands the road to it.

X. Conclusion

Here is where the week leaves us. The dividing line is real and this fellowship will not blur it: it is the closed, polyphonic canon against the living single channel; the standing order against the waiting posture; the Bible’s own tests — the command, the practice, the fruits, the message — against the claim of newer light. On that line I stand where last week’s essay stands, and this week’s meeting gave me no reason to move and several reasons to hold.

And the meeting ground is real too, and we will not abandon it: the doctrine of Christ — believe Him, confess Him, obey Him — with relationship before ministry, obedience as the organ of understanding, each of us feeding the neighbors within arm’s reach while the church together reaches the world. Susan’s closing prayer asked that we return next week able to edify, challenge, and reach for truth together. That is the fellowship’s charter in one sentence, and by the grace of God we will keep it.

Prove all things; hold fast that which is good. — 1 Thessalonians 5:21

— Thomas


Renaissance Ministries | Hyperphysics Institute

Of one heart to make Christ King – 1 Chronicles 12:38

 

260705 – Venzuela Economy and Governance Debate

Who Do You Trust? Venezuela, Rival Epistemologies, and the Kingdom Test

Christos Fellowship Essay — Meeting of July 5, 2026

Present: Leonard Hofheins, Michael Sherman, Isak Gutierrez (moderating), Charlie Gutierrez (timekeeping). Thomas Abshier was absent for most of the session due to audio difficulties; this essay is reconstructed and analyzed from the meeting transcript.

Protocol: Issachar Form — Triage, Deliberation, Action. “Of the sons of Issachar, men who understood the times, with knowledge of what Israel should do” (1 Chronicles 12:32).


I. Triage: What Happened, and What Is Actually at Stake

The meeting began, as fellowship should, in friendship: Leonard and Isak trading musical histories, Leonard recounting his mission years in Venezuela in the late 1970s — the bands, the traveling production of El Plan, the baptismal font he built behind a rented quinta in the east of the country. That biographical detail turned out to be load-bearing. When the conversation drifted from music to Venezuela’s economy, it drifted into the largest geopolitical event of the year, and Leonard was arguing about a country he once loved and served, not an abstraction.

The event underneath the debate is this. On January 3, 2026, the United States executed Operation Absolute Resolve: roughly 150 aircraft from twenty launch sites suppressed Venezuelan air defenses while special forces raided the Fuerte Tiuna compound in Caracas, captured President Nicolás Maduro and his wife Cilia Flores, and flew them to New York, where both pleaded not guilty to narcoterrorism charges. Venezuela’s interior minister later put the death toll at around one hundred, including thirty-two Cubans acknowledged by Havana as military and intelligence personnel; seven U.S. service members were injured. The operation followed months of escalation — strikes on alleged drug boats in the Caribbean beginning September 2025 that killed at least 115 people, and seizures of sanctioned oil tankers in December. Vice President Delcy Rodríguez, Maduro’s own deputy, was installed as acting president; President Trump declared that the United States would run the country until a transition could occur, with an explicit emphasis on the oil sector. Opposition leader María Corina Machado — the 2025 Nobel Peace laureate, who dedicated her prize to Trump — called for the recognition of Edmundo González, the apparent winner of the stolen 2024 election. As of this writing in July 2026, U.S. forces remain postured offshore, and the transition remains a promise rather than a fact.

So the fellowship stumbled onto three genuinely important questions. First, an epistemological one: when two brothers cannot agree on a single source of truth, how do they reason together at all? Second, a historical-economic one: what actually destroyed Venezuela — socialism, kleptocracy, sanctions, or some braid of all three — and what makes an economy “good” in the first place? Third, a moral one: was the American seizure of a sitting head of state an act of liberation or imperial predation, and by what standard would citizens of the Kingdom judge it?

The meeting engaged all three, sometimes brilliantly, sometimes badly. Both the brilliance and the badness are instructive, which is why this essay exists.

II. Deliberation: The Arguments, Their Strengths, and Their Collisions with Reality

The Epistemological Contest: Short Notes Versus Body of Work

The most consequential exchange of the evening was not about Venezuela at all. It was the twenty-minute struggle over sources. Michael, attempting to ground the Chávez question in evidence, offered mainstream and academic references — Harvard, Americas Quarterly, university presses. Leonard dismissed each as propaganda and offered a single acceptable source: ZeroHedge, the pseudonymous financial blog whose articles are all published under the name Tyler Durden, a character from Fight Club.

Credit where due to both men. Michael’s instinct — “let’s pick a source you like” — was a genuine act of intellectual hospitality. He did not demand that Leonard accept his authority; he tried to enter Leonard’s evidentiary world and reason from within it, live-auditing ZeroHedge’s About page, taking its stated principles one at a time and affirming most of them. That is the correct first move of charitable deliberation, and it should be named and honored as such.

Leonard’s position also contains a truth the fellowship should not rush past. Institutional financial journalism does have owners, agendas, and a documented record of consensus failures. His instinct that credentialed orthodoxy can be a form of gatekeeping is not paranoia; it is a defensible reading of media history. And his ultimate criterion — he reads ZeroHedge because, over time, its body of work has proven “on point” to him — is at least a track-record argument rather than a credential argument.

But here the weaknesses become severe, and they were exposed in real time. When Michael asked the natural follow-up — what does your trusted source actually say about Venezuela before and after Chávez — Leonard searched, found forty-three results, read out one headline about the December tanker blockade (which, as Michael correctly noted, concerned events twelve years after Chávez’s death), and then declined to go further: “I’m not going to read all these.” A source one will cite but not read is not functioning as evidence; it is functioning as a flag. The deeper problem is asymmetry: Leonard applied maximal skepticism to every source Michael offered and near-zero skepticism to the one he preferred, with the stated warrant being agreement — “I like what he writes… I think he’s on point.” That is confirmation, not verification. Judging a source by its body of work is right; but the body of work must actually be weighed against outcomes, the way we weigh a prophet by whether the word comes to pass (Deuteronomy 18:22), not by whether the word pleases us.

The honest low point and the honest high point of the evening belonged to the same man. Pressed on his claim that Californians drive to Arizona for cheap gas, Leonard finally said: “maybe it’s just all BS… it’s just something I heard.” That admission is worth more than it appears. It is the sound of an unverified circulating claim being caught at the moment of transmission — and every one of us transmits such claims daily. The failure was not that Leonard had heard an exaggerated story; it is that the story was deployed as evidence first and examined only under adversarial pressure. A kingdom epistemology examines before deploying.

Michael’s epistemology fared better procedurally but not perfectly. His elephant-and-blind-men principle — accumulate multiple partial sources, question each, triangulate — is sound. But he, too, curates a frame, and his frame showed its seams when the conversation reached Iran, where his rhetoric (“we lost the Iran war,” projections of civilizational annihilation, “15 Hitlers”) left the realm of the documented for the realm of the polemical. The lesson cuts both ways: the man with the better method still needs the discipline to apply it to his own strongest feelings.

The Historical Contest: What Killed Venezuela?

On the substance, both men held pieces of the elephant. Michael is correct that the early Chávez years produced measurable social gains — literacy campaigns, access to clinics, poverty reduction during the mid-2000s oil boom — and that these are recorded in international datasets, not merely in regime propaganda. Leonard is correct that the same project ended in catastrophe: hyperinflation that at its worst ran to six and seven figures annually, an exodus of roughly a quarter of the population, a police state, and rigged elections — all likewise documented, and corroborated by the testimony of every Venezuelan exile Leonard has spoken with.

The precision failure matters, though. The hyperinflation Leonard attributed to Chávez in fact peaked under Maduro, years after Chávez’s 2013 death; under Chávez, inflation was chronically high but not Weimar-like. And Michael’s counterpoint — that the recent collapse cannot be cleanly separated from U.S. sanctions and, most recently, an outright naval blockade — is analytically fair: an economy under embargo is not a controlled experiment in socialism. Leonard’s rejoinder that Maduro was Chávez’s handpicked vice president, and thus continuity not aberration, is also fair. The truthful synthesis, which neither man quite spoke but which their collision produces, is this: Chávez built a petrostate patronage machine that bought real short-term gains for the poor at the cost of destroying the productive and institutional base; Maduro inherited the machine without the oil prices or the charisma and ran it as a kleptocracy; and American pressure, whatever its justification, accelerated the immiseration of ordinary Venezuelans. All three propositions are true simultaneously. Tribal argument demands we pick one; understanding the times requires holding all three.

Leonard’s appeal to exile testimony deserves special comment because it is the strongest kind of evidence he offered, yet it still needs a caveat. The witness of those who fled is real data — the Venezuelan diaspora is one of the largest displacements in hemispheric history, and people do not abandon their homeland over propaganda. But it carries a built-in selection effect: those who leave are, definitionally, those for whom the regime failed. The chavista base that remained is invisible to that sample. Testimony is weighty; a sample is not a census.

The Economic Contest: Stalin, Monaco, and a Missed Moment of Agreement

The abstract round — can communism produce a viable economy? — produced the evening’s weakest arguments and, hidden inside them, its best moment.

Michael’s example of Stalin was rhetorically self-defeating. It is true that the USSR industrialized from a broken agrarian empire into a superpower between 1924 and 1953. But the argument proves too much: forced industrialization purchased with engineered famine, terror, and the gulag is precisely the case where “the economy grew” and “the society was good” come apart — which was supposedly Michael’s own thesis, as his child-labor example showed. Choosing history’s second-most murderous regime to demonstrate economic viability unnecessarily handed Leonard the moral high ground. Leonard’s rebuttals, however, were also shaky — the “saved by the weather” account of the Eastern Front slights the twenty-five to twenty-seven million Soviet dead who did most of the dying that broke the Wehrmacht, a point Michael rightly made.

Monaco was a better argument disguised as a worse one. Michael offered it as bait — a “great economy” by raw numbers, transparently a tax haven skimming wealth generated elsewhere — precisely to show that “name a good economy” is an underspecified question. Leonard took the bait, refuted Monaco, and in doing so was maneuvered into producing the finest sentence of the night: a good economy is “the abundant flow of capital and the broad dispersion of that within the populace.”

Stop and notice what happened there. Michael immediately and emphatically agreed. Abundance plus broad dispersion is a definition both a Chávez sympathizer and a free-market conservative just endorsed — and it is, not incidentally, a deeply biblical definition. It is the economy of the Jubilee provisions, of gleaning laws, of manna where “he who gathered much had nothing left over, and he who gathered little had no lack” (Exodus 16:18): productivity and participation, wealth and its wide reach. The two men had, for one sentence, converged on a shared standard by which Chávez, Maduro, Monaco, Stalin, and the United States could all be measured. And then the moment passed unharvested, and the conversation slid into gas prices. The fellowship’s discipline going forward should be to catch such convergences when they occur and build on them, because a shared standard is worth a hundred contested facts.

The Current-Events Contest: Liberation or Predation?

On the January intervention itself, Michael’s factual skeleton holds up remarkably well against the public record: the capture, the killed bodyguards and Cubans, the boat strikes without trial, the tanker blockade, the Nobel laureate’s dedication of her prize to Trump, the installation of Maduro’s own vice president, and the administration’s open declaration that it will run the country with the oil sector at the center. Where Michael editorializes is the mafia analogy — that this is open extraction, oil-for-obedience, of a piece with the American client-state model in the Gulf. That is an interpretation, and a contestable one, but it is an interpretation of accurately stated facts, and Leonard’s blanket “I don’t believe anything he said” was therefore the weakest possible response, because most of what Michael said is simply on the record from sources spanning the U.S. government itself.

Leonard’s counter-interpretation deserves to be stated at its strongest, because he half-argued it: the Maduro regime was a narco-state that stole an election, disarmed and starved its people, and drove millions into exile; removing its head is the necessary condition for any Venezuelan flourishing; and the administration’s stated intent is to sell Venezuelan oil at market rates for Venezuela’s benefit rather than letting it be siphoned to Cuba and China. On this reading, the operation is closer to liberation than larceny, and its critics are mistaking the surgeon’s knife for the assailant’s.

Here is where the fellowship’s own method — judge the word by whether it comes to pass — gives us something better than another round of dueling sources. The two interpretations generate opposite testable predictions. If Leonard is right, over the next one to three years we should see oil revenues visibly reaching Venezuelan reconstruction, a real electoral transition toward González or his equivalent rather than an indefinite American-supervised interregnum, exiles beginning to return, and Venezuelan living standards rising. If Michael is right, we should see revenues routed through American companies with little reaching the populace, a client government, continued emigration, and a widening pattern of similar operations against other resource states (his Colombia point is already a live indicator to watch). The fellowship should register these predictions now, in writing, and revisit them — treating contested political claims the way honest science treats hypotheses: pre-stated, then checked against outcomes. That is the “body of work” standard applied not to pundits but to ourselves.

III. Action: The Kingdom Test

Thomas has asked that these essays evaluate not only the evidence but the fruit — whether the discourse itself moves us toward manifesting the Kingdom on earth. By that standard, the meeting was a mixed offering, and honesty requires saying so.

The failures first. Source nihilism — “everything you cite is propaganda” — is not skepticism; it is the dissolution of the shared reality that any covenant community requires. A fellowship that cannot agree on any procedure for establishing facts cannot deliberate, and a people who cannot deliberate cannot do justice, because justice requires findings. Second, the Sabbath was invoked twice as an exit ramp from losing exchanges rather than honored as a boundary at the outset; using holiness as a debate tactic dishonors both the debate and the holiness. Third, contempt made appearances on both sides — the dismissiveness of “if you want to believe that, go ahead,” the sarcasm of “oh, but I trust you” — and contempt, our Lord teaches, is the seed of murder in the heart (Matthew 5:22), long before it is anything else.

Now the fruit worth keeping, because there was real fruit. The meeting opened in music and closed in care — Isak’s half-joking blood-pressure check was genuine pastoral instinct, and it landed. Charlie’s intervention with the three-minute debate structure was peacemaking as craft: not suppressing the conflict but giving it a form in which both men could be fully heard, which is what “blessed are the peacemakers” looks like in a Zoom room. Isak, the youngest voice present, modeled the posture the whole meeting needed — genuine curiosity toward both elders, an admission that his generation’s news arrives through Instagram and TikTok, and a request to hear each side steelmanned. And Michael’s benediction deserves to be canonized in our practice: “If we just go talk with folks we agree with, we just nod at each other. If we test our ideas, we perhaps grow.” That is Proverbs 27:17 in plain American — iron sharpening iron — and the fact that it was spoken after the sharpest exchanges, not instead of them, is exactly the point. The men fought hard and left as brothers. In 2026 America, that is itself a countercultural witness, and it should not be taken for granted.

Concrete protocol for future sessions, offered for the fellowship’s adoption. First, a shared-source covenant: before any factual dispute proceeds, each party names one source from the other’s world they will provisionally accept, and the discussion is bounded by the union of the two — hospitality made procedural. Second, the pre-registration discipline described above: contested predictions get written down with dates and revisited, so that our trust migrates toward whoever’s model of the world keeps coming true, including our own. Third, the steelman rule Isak intuitively requested: no one rebuts a position until he has stated it well enough that its holder says “yes, that’s it.” Fourth, the Sabbath boundary is set at the opening prayer, not deployed mid-argument. And fifth, the fruit test as standing agenda item: before closing, the group asks aloud whether the hour’s discourse made us more capable of loving our neighbor — including the Venezuelan neighbor, in whose name both liberation and predation are now being claimed, and whose actual flourishing, not our vindication, is the measure God will use.

The evening’s true finding was spoken by Leonard himself, in the middle of the fray, almost as a lament: “It comes back to the same question. Who do you trust? How do you know it’s true?” That is not a rhetorical dead end; it is the oldest question in our faith’s epistemology, and it has an answer that neither cable news nor ZeroHedge can supply. Trust is earned by a body of work tested against reality — and the One whose words have never once failed to come to pass has thereby earned it absolutely. Every lesser source, left or right, institutional or insurgent, must be weighed on the same scale. The Kingdom is manifested not when our side wins the argument, but when a community of people who disagree this much can still seek the truth together, submit their predictions to reality, and end the evening checking one another’s blood pressure.

Prepared from the meeting transcript of July 5, 2026. Factual statements regarding the January 2026 U.S. operation in Venezuela are corroborated by contemporaneous reporting (CBS, CNN, Al Jazeera, CNBC), the U.K. House of Commons Library briefing CBP-10452, CSIS analysis, and U.S. Department of War statements.

 

260625 – Grow Where You Are Planted

Stay and Let Your Light Shine: On Witnessing from Within Rather Than Leaving

Fellowship Discussion Essay | 25 June 2026

Occasion. Charlie and I had a long phone call on Thursday evening. Charlie left Mormonism for a version of Christianity that offered the liberty of Christ he felt was missing in the Mormon culture. Most of his family and many of the people he loves are still inside it. So the question he set before me was this: now that he confesses Jesus as Lord and Savior and the Bible as God’s revelation, and does not elevate the Book of Mormon above the Bible, what does he owe to the people who remain? That is, should he go back among them to witness and draw them to the same freedom he has found? I want to set down the answer we worked toward because I think it is the answer for more people than just Charlie, and because it runs counter to the message most new believers hear.

I. The question Charlie carried

Charlie was repulsed by how badly a religious system can fail when men are put in charge of conscience. The particulars are not what this essay is about, and I will not repeat them; what matters is the lesson he drew. When people place another scriptural authority above the Bible with its promise of liberty, men who profess direct revelation from God will use that currency to justify the usurpation of others’ will and act as the director and final authority in human affairs. Such men take the historical respect accorded to prophets, direct revelators, apostles, and holy men. They replace the free working of God’s Spirit with their voice, declaring themselves the directors of men’s lives, morals, possessions, and affairs. They sit in the seat that belongs to Scripture and conscience. There is no limit to the demands that such self-styled “messiahs” and “messengers from God” can justify. That realization renewed in Charlie an old grief. He loves people who are still inside the system. The question is what he owes them, whether it is worth trying, and the pain of going back into the system and enduring resistance.

He floated the option most ex-members consider, going back as a cultural visitor — the way a secular Jew might show up for Passover, present but no longer a believer, melded in without conviction. And underneath there were more questions. What is the danger? Is the grip so strong on those in the system that resistance is futile? Is there a danger to his soul being in that environment? Is the grip so strong that the loving thing is simply to leave them to find their own way out, and simply stay far away to protect himself and his family from the control and influence?

II. Stay — and put the Bible on top

My counsel to Charlie may not be what most pastors would say. I do not think that people who have come to Christ, who are living inside of a religious community, where their entire social system lies, should leave.

Here is the principle as I have come to hold it, and I have said it in the fellowship before, but I have never heard anyone else say it. When a person comes to genuine faith in Christ within a tradition that teaches a doctrine you believe is unBiblical, my counsel is usually not to leave. Stay and be a missionary, an evangelist, a witness to the light you have found. If you are in a non-Christian religion, put the Bible on top. Keep the relationships you have. Stay in the fellowship and the family that has filled your life. But set the Bible above every other authority and every other book. Establish it as the standard by which all the rest is now judged. Change your own heart first. And then be a light from within, sanctifying the house one person at a time. Your mission is to be a witness to the light until, little by little, the people around you have had their own hearts changed, and the group, religion, cult, family, or ashram is reformed from the inside out.

Three reasons stand behind that counsel. The first is that having a relationship is the precondition of influence. If you are not in a relationship with a person, you cannot influence them. If you are breaking bread with them, spending time, sharing life, then you are able to exert a constant influence. You cannot witness to people you have abandoned. The second is that the people inside the group are, in some sense, literally or functionally, your family. I lived in a yogic ashram for six years. I  became close to them. They were like family. This is the norm. After so many years together, I was connected to them like family. To tear yourself out and announce, “I have found the truth; I am going to go find a different family,” the investment in the relationship is lost. The third is what often happens when people leave: they try to establish relationships in a new church where they have no relationships, which may or may not be successful or satisfying in finding others that they connect with. It is possible to end up adrift. The outcome may be trading a flawed family for no family. Paul’s word fits here: “Let every man abide in the same calling wherein he was called” (1 Corinthians 7:20). To bloom where you are planted may require a great deal of effort, and it may or may not yield fruit, but witnessing to the unsaved in your own household is to bloom where you are planted. Every instinct may be to flee. Every person must make that decision. If it is dangerous, then leaving to protect the temple is wise and warranted.

III. The pattern of Jesus in the synagogue

Charlie noted that Jesus went to the synagogue His whole life. “As his custom was, he went into the synagogue on the sabbath day” (Luke 4:16). He read in it, taught in it, worshiped in it. An honest assessment of the synagogue of His day was that it was practicing and teaching a tradition that was badly off course. It was run by men who would eventually conspire to kill Him. He did not separate Himself from it to be in a more pure fellowship. He stayed inside it and bore witness within it, right up until they tried to throw Him off a cliff.

As Charlie put it, when they pursue you to kill you, that is the time to join another church. Until then, you stay. The faithful witness works from inside the house until the house itself makes staying impossible. And note what Jesus prayed for His own: “I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil” (John 17:15). The model is occupying, not extraction. I think this passage gives us a clue about the rapture.

IV. Why “the Bible on top” of all others

From what I have learned about it, I don’t believe Mormonism is an evil religion. I’ve learned a lot about Mormonism in the last few months, much of it from Leonard. So far, I have not heard anything that conflicts with Biblical scripture. It sounds like a religion that includes the Bible among its sacred texts, but it places the revelation of the Book of Mormon above the Bible. The Book of Mormon is presented as an undistorted revelation from God, received by a man who presented it as the undistorted revelation of the record preserved in the Bible.  It sounds like it teaches moral/Godly behavior, family values, loving God, and following Christ. Because it is presented as being the revelation of a man who was asking what was the, who has added an extra book and come to esteem it above the Bible, with certain consequences that follow from that one move. So the problem is not a list of strange doctrines. The problem is structural, and it is the same structure that defines every closed system: a living human authority, or a continuing word, placed above the settled revelation of Scripture.

That single inversion is what does the damage, and it is worth naming exactly. Once you accept that a man’s new word can supersede the Bible, you have been trained to follow the next man who stands up and claims the word. You no longer get to weigh anything for yourself; you are always waiting on the latest authority to tell you what is true. You forfeit your freedom in Christ and live a man-directed life. This is the common signature of the cult, whatever its name: we alone have the truth, a single source of authority that decides everything, obedience prized above conscience, the hive mind, and the careful habit of keeping contradictory things on separate shelves in the mind so the cognitive dissonance never gets loud enough to force a choice.

Putting the Bible on top is precisely what dissolves that trap, because it restores the floor and restores your freedom. Every claim — including a leader’s, including a revelation’s — is now testable against a fixed standard you did not invent and no man controls. This is the Berean spirit Scripture commends: they “searched the scriptures daily, whether those things were so” (Acts 17:11). It is Paul’s plain instruction: “Prove all things; hold fast that which is good” (1 Thessalonians 5:21). It is the liberty Christ died to give: “Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free” (Galatians 5:1). You do not have to leave the room to be free. You have to put the right book on top.

V. The cost of being the truth-teller inside

I will not pretend this is comfortable. It is not. Charlie has lived the cost of it. He is, by his own description, a contrarian — the boy who says the emperor has no clothes — and he stopped fitting in around sixteen or seventeen and stayed not-fitting for decades. Living inside a closed system while quietly refusing to toe the line is a hard way to exist; people sense you are not with them, and there is friction at every corner. He compared his earlier years inside to living in a brawl.

But discomfort is not a reason to leave. We are not called to an easy life; we are called to be like Him. Without trials, we will not grow. “For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth…” Hebrews 12:6 If sanctification were comfortable, it would not be meaningful. He wants us to grow “…unto a perfect man, unto the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ.” Ephesians 4:13. If God wanted children, we would need only to say the sinner’s prayer once, and there would be no need for further lessons. be done. But the entire scripture is about growing up into full sonship. “…we are predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son.” Romans 8:29. But there is no growth of character in that. It’s a start, and a necessary beginning, but you only grow against resistance. The resistance of a roomful of people trying to pull you back is exactly the kind of resistance that grows a person.

I went through something somewhat like that challenge that required me to grow. When I first started counseling people in my Naturopathic practice, I just listened to them, heard them deeply, and they got better. But as I continued in practice, people with increasingly complex personality and relational issues came to see me. It was necessary for me to give stronger counsel to people to help those who were deeply entrenched in their disorders and habits. As a person, I grew up being agreeable to make friends. I just listened, never confronting anyone, because I had no strong opinions, and I just wanted to make them feel good. That didn’t help people grow. I eventually realized that it only makes people feel good, as they are going toward destruction – that is not love. But we should confront people. “…speaking the truth in love…”  Ephesians 4:15. Listen before speaking. “He that answereth a matter before he heareth it, it is folly and shame unto him.” Proverbs 18:13. We earn the right to speak by hearing their full story. The spoonful of sugar does help the medicine go down easily.

When Charlie was inside Mormonism, the system had a grip on him. Every exchange became a fight because he was still half-hooked. That hook is gone now. He has changed; the grip is broken; he has none of it left in him. Which means that if he went back now, it would not be the brawl it once was. He could say the true thing — even quote Christ in a room that does not want to hear it — calmly, kindly, and free, in a way he simply could not when he was still tangled in it. The witness who has been set free witnesses very differently from the one still struggling to get loose.

VI. Work the edges; build a new nucleus

Strategy matters, and the strategy is not a frontal assault. The center of a closed system is too well defended and too well supported from within; you will not break it head-on, and you will exhaust yourself trying. You go for the edges instead — the outliers, the questioners, the ones already quietly uneasy, the people whose shelves are starting to slide together. You find one like-minded soul, you nurture that friendship, you invite that person into fellowship, and you let a new center form — a small, strong nucleus that can grow and, in time, leaven the whole.

This is not conquest; it is infiltration by love and relationship. And Scripture knows the arithmetic of it: “Two are better than one… and a threefold cord is not quickly broken” (Ecclesiastes 4:12). You are not trying to win a building. You are trying to find the one other person God has already been working on, and to bind your strength to theirs.

VII. Multiply by ones

The great commission spreads person to person, not by broadcast. I have a mailing list that goes out every week, and in all that time, exactly one person — Mike Sherman — ever actually came because of it. The open invitation, just dial in, does not work. What works is a friend who actually talks with you, who then brings another friend who wants in. That is the whole history of our own fellowship: Charlie invited Leonard, and Leonard came. I invited Mike, and Mike came. It moves by hand, one warm relationship at a time.

So the counsel is the same for anyone, anywhere — even a person with no church at all, even someone whose only fellowship right now is a bad crowd. Do not wait to find the perfect congregation. Find one other person, open the Word together on a Sunday, wrestle with the real questions, and invite a friend. “Where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them” (Matthew 18:20). That is how the culture actually changes — not by everyone funneling into one big church, but by countless small faithful cells, each going and teaching as the Lord commanded (Matthew 28:19-20), until it spreads everywhere. And the most effective form of it is often the least strategic: simply being yourself and sharing honestly. More than one person has come to Christ from something I said when I was not even trying to witness — just being who I am and telling the truth I had found.

VIII. The deeper aim: reconciliation, not one more schism

Leonard has asked me to take up Ezekiel 37 next — the valley of dry bones, and the two sticks that the prophet is told to join: “join them one to another into one stick; and they shall become one in thine hand” (Ezekiel 37:17). The deep work of God in that chapter is the healing of fracture — breath returning to scattered bones, divided houses re-joined into one. It is reunion, not separation.

And that is finally why I counsel staying rather than leaving. To leave the house you were raised in is to add one more fracture to a world already full of them. It creates one more fragment, one more lonely splinter group convinced it alone is right. To stay, with the Bible on top and a changed heart, is to take up the prophet’s posture: to work for the joining rather than the splitting, to be an agent of the re-knitting God does with dry bones. We are not trying to win an argument or to extract ourselves cleanly. We are trying to be present where God is breathing life back into what was broken.

Closing

When you have found Christ and put the Bible above every human authority, the call may be, not to flee the house but to stay in it as salt and light. “Ye are the salt of the earth… Ye are the light of the world… Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven” (Matthew 5:13-16). Set the standard above every man’s word, so that you and everyone around you are free again to test all things. Bear the discomfort as the price of growth. Work the edges and multiply by ones. Stay until staying is made impossible.

We do not abandon the people we love in order to save ourselves. We stay, and we shine, and we trust the God who joins dry bones to do through our quiet, costly presence what no departure ever could.

— Thomas


Renaissance Ministries | Hyperphysics Institute

Of one heart to make Christ King. 1 Chronicles 12:38

 

 

 

 

 

 

260612 – Heart of Stone into Heart of Flesh

The Beast’s Heart

Fellowship Discussion Essay | June 11, 2026

Occasion. I heard an old song on the radio this week — Billy Idol’s “Rebel Yell,” from 1983. I had heard it before, but could not understand the lyrics. This time I understood. This was a song about raw animal emotion, a tangle of midnight wanting and unsatisfied desire. The snarl and drive matched the lyrics and spirit. It is a masterpiece of acting out the animal spirit in song. It speaks of the unregulated animal appetite that has slipped its restraints and is now driving the culture from underneath. The song is a monument to our animal condition, and it is worth listening to as a case study in the forces tugging at the human heart, if you feel you are strong enough to resist its pull and can tolerate looking at the naked facts of the human condition.

Rebel Yell lyrics by Billy Idol
Rebel Yell YouTube – Official Music Video

I. The portrait in the song

The song stages a scene in the dark. A visitor arrives — first called a dancer, then an angel — and the encounter is charged and transactional from the first line: there is talk of a license for love, and of what happens when the license expires. But the engine of the whole song is not the visitor. It is the cry. In the midnight hour, the demand goes up and will not stop — more, and then more, and then more again — flung out as a defiant shout, the rebel yell of the title. Whatever is given, the cry is for more. The song never resolves this because the cry has no built-in resolution. It is appetite that has discovered it cannot be filled, and has decided to make its insatiability into a kind of anthem.

Two details deepen it. There is a figure on the bridge who lives in a private heaven of his own, out all night, collecting — so long as it does not mess up his hair. That is the animal spirit dressed for the mirror: appetite plus vanity, the self curated even in the middle of its own hunger. And there is the third verse, which is the saddest and the most revealing, because it is generous. The singer vows to walk the whole world, to dry her tears a million times, to sell his soul, to burn through money, to give everything and keep nothing for himself — all of it, to keep her near. That is total devotion. That is the language of a martyr or a saint. And it is being poured out, entirely, onto an object that can only answer with one word: more.

Hold that, because it is the hinge of the whole essay. The tragedy in the song is not that the man wants too much. It is that he is built for an infinite self-gift and an infinite longing, and he has aimed both at something finite, and so the longing has turned bottomless, and the self-gift has turned into slavery. The capacity is glorious. The direction is ruin.

II. What the Bible calls it: the beast in the man

Scripture has a name for the condition, and a picture of it more vivid than any song.

The picture is of Nebuchadnezzar. He was the greatest king of the earth, and pride hardened in him, and the judgment that fell on him in Daniel 4 was not a plague or a war. It was a descent into the animal. He was driven from men, and did eat grass as oxen, and his body was wet with the dew of heaven, till his hairs were grown like eagles’ feathers, and his nails like birds’ claws (Daniel 4:33). The man did not cease to exist; he ceased to be a man. His reason left him, and a beast’s heart was given him in its place (Daniel 4:16). And here is the detail that decides everything in this essay: his understanding did not return by argument, or by effort, or by anyone reasoning with the ox he had become. It returned the moment he lifted his eyes to heaven. And at the end of the days I Nebuchadnezzar lifted up mine eyes unto heaven, and mine understanding returned unto me (Daniel 4:34). The beast was not refuted. The man was restored from above.

The rest of Scripture confirms the diagnosis. Man that is in honour, and understandeth not, is like the beasts that perish (Psalm 49:20). Be ye not as the horse, or as the mule, which have no understanding (Psalm 32:9). Peter and Jude describe men who have surrendered to appetite as natural brute beasts, made to be taken and destroyed, who speak evil of the things that they understand not; and shall utterly perish in their own corruption (2 Peter 2:12; Jude 10). And Paul gives the whole conflict its permanent name: the war between the flesh and the Spirit. For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other (Galatians 5:17). The works of the flesh he lists are exactly the catalogue of the unregulated animal — and over against them stands the fruit of the Spirit, which ends, not by accident, in temperance (Galatians 5:22-23): the rider’s hand on the animal’s neck.

Man is the one creature on the earth who can go either way. He can lift his eyes and become almost an angel, or he can drop them and become a beast — and the beast he becomes is worse than any actual animal, because no wolf was ever vain about its hair, and no ox ever made an anthem of its hunger. The animal spirit is not man being natural. It is man’s defaulting on the thing that makes him man.

III. The anatomy of the hunger

Here is what must be said carefully, because the church may have said it badly or been misunderstood: the appetite itself is not the enemy. God made the hungers. He made the desire for food, for union, for beauty, for honor, for more. The capacity for the infinite — the cry that is never satisfied — is one of the fingerprints of God on the human soul. The animals are satisfied; a fed dog is a content dog. Only man carries a hunger that nothing in the world can fill, and that hunger is not a defect. It is a homing signal.

The disorder is not what we desire. The disorder is insatiability from misdirection. Augustine said it in the line that few obey: Thou hast made us for Thyself, and our heart is restless until it rests in Thee. The infinite longing was made for the Infinite. Aim it at God, and it finds its rest. Aim it at anything less — a body, a fortune, a following, a feeling — and the very greatness of the longing turns the finite object into a furnace that consumes everything fed to it and roars for more. Proverbs saw it: The horseleach hath two daughters, crying, Give, give. There are three things that are never satisfied, yea, four things say not, It is enough (Proverbs 30:15-16). Ecclesiastes saw it: the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing (Ecclesiastes 1:8). That is the rebel yell, written three thousand years before Billy Idol. More, more, more is what an eternal hunger says when you point it at something that ends.

This is what idolatry actually is, mechanically. It is not primarily bowing to a statue. It is taking the desire that was built to terminate on God and terminating it on a creature, and then living forever in the gap between what the creature can give and what the desire requires. That gap is the midnight hour of the song. It never closes. It cannot close. The idol always cries more because the worshipper was made for the Infinite and has settled for less.

IV. The counterfeit freedom

The song is honest about one more thing, and the honesty is terrible. Its rebel yell sounds like freedom. It is a shout of defiance, of refusal to be a slave, of appetite throwing off restraint. And that is exactly how the animal spirit sells itself to a culture: as liberation. Throw off the old rules, the old shame, the old restraints, and be free.

But the song tells itself.

 

 

The man who will not be a slave ends the song still crying for more in the dark, having sold his soul and kept none of himself. He is not free. He is owned. Peter named the trick exactly: While they promise them liberty, they themselves are the servants of corruption: for of whom a man is overcome, of the same is he brought in bondage (2 Peter 2:19). And the Lord said it plainest: Whosoever committeth sin is the servant of sin (John 8:34). The rebel yell is the sound a chain makes when it has convinced its wearer that it is a banner. There is no freer-sounding word in the language than more, and no word that has enslaved more people.

V. The age possessed

What is true in a man is now true in the culture, scaled up and amplified by machines.

The machines came for the animal spirit on purpose. The attention economy — the feed, the algorithm, the endless scroll — is engineered to find the appetite and pull it. It does not reward what is true, or patient, or quiet, or good; those things do not hold the eye. It rewards the yell. It rewards outrage, provocation, spectacle, the contrarian who throws red meat, the image that inflames before it informs. A whole apparatus now exists whose business model is the midnight cry for more — more clicks, more rage, more watching — and it has trained a generation to feel that the volume of the yell is the measure of the truth. This is the animal spirit industrialized. It does not need to argue you into the beast’s heart. It only needs to keep your eyes down.

And then there are the moments when the whole culture’s animal spirit shows itself naked over a real human grief.

This spring a year ago, two seventeen-year-old boys were at a track meet in Frisco, Texas, on a rainy morning. There was an argument over a tent. One boy, Austin Metcalf — a junior with a 3.97 grade-point average, his twin brother beside him — was stabbed in the chest and died there on the field. The other boy, Karmelo Anthony, was charged, claimed self-defense, and this week, after a trial, was convicted of murder and sentenced to thirty-five years. Set aside, for one paragraph, everything that was argued about that case, because the thing I want you to see is not the verdict. It is what the rest of us did with a dead child.

Within days, the killing was no longer a tragedy; it was a flank in a war. Because one boy was black and one was white, the whole machine descended, and the animal spirit fed. Each tribe took the corpse for its own purposes. A fundraiser drew more than half a million dollars; the accused’s family relocated to a home in a gated community while the otehr boy’s parents planned a funeral, and the country howled at each other about it. More. More heat, more posts, more money, more spectacle, more of the rage that the feed converts into revenue. A seventeen-year-old with a 3.97 average was dead, and the nation’s overwhelming response was to use him. That is the beast’s heart at the scale of a civilization: the inability to simply grieve a child, because grief does not feed the appetite, and tribal rage does.

But there is one figure in that whole grim story who shows the other thing, and he is the reason I can bear to write about it at all. Austin’s father, Jeff Metcalf, early on spoke publicly of faith and of forgiveness — a Christian man, over the body of his murdered son, reaching for the hardest word in the gospel. And then, at the sentencing, the same man spoke of his grief as rage — pure, unfiltered rage, and brought his fist down on the table. Both are true. Both came out of the same broken heart. And that — not the mob, not the fundraiser, not the feed — is the truest picture in this entire essay: a man with the beast and the image of God at war inside him, the rage of the animal and the forgiveness of the Spirit contending over the grave of his child, and the man himself caught in the middle, trying to lift his eyes. We are all of us that father. The only question is which of the two we feed.

VI. Why the argument cannot reach it

As I have noted in other papers, I do not believe argument alone transforms hearts. Nevertheless, argument, rationality, and comprehension are elements of transformation. At the very least, comprehension of words or experience is required. The problem with argument as a witnessing/evangelization method is that only deductive argument offers 100% proof of truth. And deduction is not available in arguments of faith because faith, by definition, implies an unknown. Only induction is available in issues of faith. Thus, persuasion by inductive argument is the process of presenting the case for the probability of a conclusion. Thus, induction is useful, even necessary/unavoidable, in witnessing and learning lessons from life. Hosea 4:6 “My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge…” Which means that, without knowledge of the ways of the world, the forces at work, and the probabilities of outcomes from various actions, decisions will be made with a high likelihood of failure.

But another problem frustrates the use of argument as a tool of persuasion in matters of faith: people lock into habits of behavior and expectations of outcomes. This is seen as a defensive maneuver that people use to maintain the correctness of a current point of view. During an evangelization (or any) argument, the listener will take bits of input important to building the causal and probabilistic case and generalize, delete, and distort the proponent’s facts/events. The listener will generalize that which he considers true, delete/ignore those facts/probabilities he does not hold as true, and distort the magnitudes or direction of the arguments. Thus, very little of what the proponent presents will land on the listener as the speaker presents.

In addition to these issues, arguments for/against a fact/probability alone do not necessarily touch the heart. For example, saying that bullets and knives cause pain and death is meaningless to someone who has not experienced loss or injury. But all of us have some experience with painful/negative emotions, and we have not all applied all those lessons to every area of life. The affective/emotional reality of felt pain is required to move the heart. Facts/probability move the mind, and pain/loss moves the heart.  Thus, effective argument anchors memories of trauma/pain to the negative facts/probabilities and joy/pleasure to positive facts/probabilities.

The next question is whether activation of the emotional connection requires divine intervention. The answer is yes and no. Ultimately, the entire world is under God’s control, and miracles are always possible when a right mind is established through proper calibration of facts/probabilities, and the correct association of positive/negative emotions with the spectrum of life outcomes. The fact is that we can be misprogrammed to reverse-connect pleasure and pain with facts and probabilities. And it gets even worse, it is possible to misperceive events and misjudge probabilities (distortion of input)

The question is whether the Bible or a miracle is needed to move the heart to accept the gospel, the renewed life, to replace the heart of stone with the heart of flesh. Of course, miracles are always welcome and sought, and sometimes they are effective. But as humans, we cannot expect divine intervention to do all the work of life. Such an expectation goes against common sense, experience, and believability. God created the creation as an experience of working in the garden. We can and should pray for miracles, for divine intervention, and then we should go work in the field.

Some of us in the fellowship have experienced miracles that have turned us from the life of the seeker to that of the believer. The stories are different. There is no formula that is certain. We cannot just say, “read the Bible,” or “say the sinner’s prayer,” or pray and expect uniform positive results. We cannot expect that, by being a good example of Christ’s love and mercy, by caring deeply, or by speaking the truth in love, the heart will be transformed. Every soul is different; the key is unique. We can use high-probability interventions, but it’s still only a probability that they will be successful, even if we use all of the interventions: argument/reason, affective anchoring, miraculous intervention of divine sovereignty, and the seed-planting of daily Bible reading.

Is there a key to witnessing? No. It is everything. It is living the best life we can, loving our friends who have not experienced life in the Word or heard the Holy Spirit speaking to their hearts. It is arguing/speaking the truth in love, connecting positive emotions with Godly behaviors, and negative emotions with division. It is a prayer for those who are not open to direct conversation about facts and probabilities. Those who have no affinity for the divine revelations of the Word are all of the above. Prayer for a divine touch, a type of miracle, a sovereign gift applied to which human hands cannot deliver. The argument can be a doorway, but the argument alone is cold, logical, and probabilistic. The ultimate goal is the transformation of the heart. Until the will desires the ways of God, he will be double-minded, split in his allegiance, pulled between the flesh and spirit. Ezekiel 36:26  “I will remove the heart of stone… and give you a heart of flesh.”

Having noted that argument is not sufficient by itself to effect transformation, clarification of what argument is, and what it can accomplish, is necessary. An effective argument can establish probability, which is the likelihood that a position is correct. Argument/reason is the connection of facts with cause, and recognition that multiple factors produce the effect of probabilities. Faith is required only when induction is involved. Induction involves the causal connection of facts, but not all the cases where the applicable rules apply are available for analysis. Thus, faith is not required only when an absolute causal/deductive/necessary causal connection is present. Faith is always required when there is even the least possibility of an alternative cause or outcome. Cause and effect cannot be proven in observational studies. Even the most mathematically rigorous theory depends upon faith at its basis since existence is assumed axiomatically.

Reason alone cannot touch the heart, but connecting the feelings we do have with the consequences of Godliness and rebellion against God’s way can implant what is missing. God can speak directly to a man and give him a heart of flesh, a conviction of error/rebellion, and an affinity for the truth of God’s way. We must realize that passion for a position can be the opposite of Godly knowledge, understanding, revelation, facts, and probabilities. We can acquire an affective/emotional/willful attraction to evil.

How should we argue, witness, anchor, counsel to the friend who has flipped his allegiance, reason, heart, and will toward the succor of evil? Argument/reason will convince some men to seek a deeper relationship with God, and argument on some level is necessary, but it may not be effective with the heart in committed rebellion. Argument/teaching/understanding is good, but it may be rejected as a s necessary, but not sufficient. I think recommending the word is the balm of Gilead, the healing water of truth,

Every argument includes information and facts, some of which are hidden as premises, assumptions, and axioms. Thus, when arguing, genuinely new facts make a difference and are essential for making arguments more probable. In effect, this is what Jesus and the apostles did when they did miracles. They added new facts. They presented new evidence of God’s power and existence by performing miracles. The miracles did not prove God, but it was a new fact of life. It was not well explained by the current/common understanding of the mechanisms of life. When the facts/results were attributed to the power of God through Jesus Christ, they were added to the evaluation of the probability that God exists and that Jesus was His Son, and they gave weight/probability to the assertion that He had an authoritative connection with God the Father. That what is needed in the modern world.

The appearance of miracles is a Sea change. An entirely new fact arose, and it was load-bearing. The sudden appearance of any new evidence/facts/experiments, theories/arguments that cannot be accounted for by normal mechanistic/materialistic causes likewise gives strong material confirmation of God’s existence. It is my opinion that the CPP postulates, and in particular the postulate that Dark Matter is composed of qDPs and hTetras, which meets all the criteria of DM, will be on the order of miraculous signs; it is evidence seen in the stars that the God of this world has put as His fingerprint. Such an acceptance of the CPP framing of DM will, I believe, produce a sea change, a shift in the assumed nature of reality. We do not live in a material world. It is a spiritual world appearing material. The stuff of material existence is of the nature of the mind of God.

You cannot argue a beast back into a man. Nobody debated Nebuchadnezzar out of the field. You can present every syllogism for chastity, for temperance, for the dignity of the human person, and the animal spirit will not hear them. The animal spirit does not have ears for that register. It has appetites, not arguments. Our fundamental nature is animal, but we are capable of communion with God; it requires a new spirit, a heart of flesh.

This is not a counsel of despair; it is a counsel of accuracy. Nebuchadnezzar’s understanding returned the instant he lifted his eyes to heaven — which is to say, the cure for the beast’s heart comes from above the level on which the beast operates. It is not a refutation. It is restoration. It is the man being given his reason back as a gift when he finally looks up. Our task, then, is not only to argue, though we must argue; it is to do whatever puts heaven back in front of people’s eyes — so that, looking up, they become men again.

VII. The cure: not less desire, but desire redeemed

Now return to the third verse of the song, the generous one, because the gospel’s answer is hidden inside the very thing that damned the singer.

To walk the whole world for someone. To dry their tears a million times. To sell your soul, to burn through everything you have, to give all and have none — to keep nothing back. That is the most extravagant devotion a human being can offer. And the gospel does not tell us to want less than that. The gospel tells us we have aimed it at the wrong throne. The exact same total self-gift — give all and have none — is damnation when it is poured out on an idol that cries for more, and it is sanctity when it is poured out on the God who made the longing. The martyrs gave all and kept none. They walked the world. They sold everything. They are the people the third verse was describing, who were finally pointed in the right direction. The animal spirit and the saint are made of the same fire. The only difference is the altar.

So the way home is not to kill desire — the Stoic’s mistake, and the gray, joyless thing that much of the church has offered in place of the gospel. The way home is to reorder desire. Be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind (Romans 12:2). When the Lord himself was driven into the wilderness and the animal hunger was turned up to its full strength after forty days, he did not pretend he was not hungry. He answered the appetite with a larger one: Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God (Matthew 4:4). That is temperance — not the absence of hunger, but a hunger so much greater that it commands the smaller ones. The Spirit becomes the rider, and the animal, which was never meant to be killed, is finally broken to the saddle and becomes useful, even beautiful — a horse instead of a stampede.

And there is a yell on the other side, too. The midnight cry of the flesh is more, more, more — more for me, forever, into the dark. But the saints have a rebel yell of their own, and the fellowship has been circling it all week. It is the cry of those who loved not their lives unto the death (Revelation 12:11) — who gave all and kept none, and aimed it at the Lamb. It is the old Revolutionary cry, No king but King Jesus. That is the true rebellion. The man crying more in the song thinks he is the rebel; he is the most conquered man alive, owned by his own appetite. The real rebel is the one who has thrown off the tyranny of more and bent the knee to the only King who can fill the infinite hunger, because He is the Infinite the hunger was made for. The flesh yells to keep. The Spirit yells to give. Only one of those yells is free.

VIII. Closing

And at the end of the days I Nebuchadnezzar lifted up mine eyes unto heaven, and mine understanding returned unto me, and I blessed the most High. — Daniel 4:34

But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof. — Romans 13:14

The song is the truth about us, with the answer left out. We are built for an infinite longing and a total self-gift, and the age has taught us to spend both in the midnight hour on things that can only cry more. That is the animal spirit, and it has the culture by the throat — in the feed that farms our appetites, in the way we could not even grieve a murdered boy without feeding on him, in the rage and the forgiveness at war in one father’s heart.

The answer is not to want less. It is to lift our eyes, and to let the hunger find the only thing big enough to fill it. The same fire that burns the man in the song to the ground is the fire that makes a saint, and the only difference is the altar. Make not provision for the flesh. Lift up your eyes unto heaven, and your understanding will return to you — and the yell on your lips will change from more, more, more to no king but King Jesus.

— Thomas


Renaissance Ministries | Hyperphysics Institute

Of one heart to make Christ King – 1 Chronicles 12:38

I think the Karamelo Anthony story needs its own section below the first section above.

Regarding your comments about Metcalf’s father. I think there is a time for white-hot rage. This is what he said: If we can’t be angry about people who raise their children to hate white people, who play the race card to get sympathy and money, what is the purpose of having anger? When is the time to turn the other cheek and the time to tell the truth in love?  Yes, we should desire to be filled with desire for God, but when the children that God loves are killed out of the motive of racial hatred, where is the teaching, the confrontation of truth in this world? Yes, vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord. So we do not lynch, imprison, strike, or impoverish the perpetrator, or take an eye for an eye. in revenge. Rather, we let the government be the long arm of the Lord. The enforcer of His way. But the

Bereaved father Jeff Metcalf, father of slain teen Austin Metcalf, blasted the parents of his son’s murderer Karmelo Anthony, slamming them for failing to properly raise their son, as a court-imposed gag order was lifted following Anthony’s trial.

Metcalf went scorched earth Wednesday night on a three-hour livestream hosted by journalist Sarah Fields, addressing disrespect directed towards him following the incident that he was unable to respond to due to the gag order.

“I’m surprised honestly by human race and mankind of the despicable vile display of the most uncompassionate, unempathetic, uncaring soulless individuals who choose to monetize the death of a dead child, or speak very derogatory of him, or make memes and talk all over the internet about my son while I’m under a gag order and can’t respond,” Metcalf stated. “It’s like being tied to a chair and someone is slapping your face back and forth and you can do nothing about it but take it.”

“Well that day has ended. The muzzle’s off, and all you people, I’m telling you up front right now, this is a warning. Karma’s a bitch. ‘Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord.’ I don’t have to come after you, it’s gonna take care of itself.”

starts at 16:00

The upset father went on to blast Anthony’s parents, saying, “Drew Anthony, you’re a pussy and a coward – and you raised one. Kayla [Hayes], you drunk bitch. What did you do to that boy to make him stab somebody? My god, what kind of mother are you?”

“I’ve been disrespected by so many people so many times while I’ve had to sit here and take it,” he continued. “You are grifters. You should be ashamed of yourself. You raised that child and I swear to God, CPS should come check on those other three that you still have.”

The grieving dad also referenced the time he was kicked out of a press conference held by Anthony’s parents and accused of stirring racial division, saying he was trying to bridge the racial gap.

“You never once admitted or took accountability. You tried to play victim. The real victim is the one who died, not the one who shoved a knife in his chest,” he said. “I come to pray with you and show the world we can close the gap of this unbelievable racial divide. And what did you do? You widened the gap even further. You people hang your hat on the dumbest shit I’ve ever seen.”

Metcalf proceeded to invent a racial slur for Karmelo to play into the racist trope, saying, “Let me make something racist up so y’all can go viral. I got a new name for Melo, okay? Because he was such this little boy y’all was trying to portray. How about ‘Watermelon Felon’? How’s that one strike you?”

“I hope he enjoyed his first night in that cell last night because he’s going to have many nights to think about what the hell he did,” he added.

In a passionate boomer-esque rant, Metcalf also criticized black people who supported Anthony merely due to the color of his skin, despite his egregious crime, and slammed black entitlement culture.

Of course Austin Metcalf’s family are getting a bunch of death threats because that’s what happens. When somebody is held accountable for their crimes, then people lash out even more with violent anger. But you’ll jump on the side of a murderer for skin color.

Do you know how stupid that really makes you look? “I’m going to support somebody blindly even though they did wrong.” You’re going to support someone who does something against the law. You’re encouraging and saying it’s okay because he’s a certain color.

Oh, you’ve got more melanin than me, so you get more privileges, more entitlement because 400 years ago someone actually sold you to us and we took you over here and put you to work and then we had a Civil War to free your ass.

And now you want to talk. “Oh, I’m being so oppressed.” You couldn’t even vote in 1960. Look how far you’ve come. Look at all the freedoms we give you.

You’re not oppressed. You’re entitled.

You know what DEI stands for? Yeah. Means I don’t have to be qualified. I just have to be a certain color or race or gender. Whose bright-ass idea was that? I don’t know about you, but when I grew up there was no participation trophy. There wasn’t a safe space created for me because my feelings were hurt.

We had to take actual responsibility for our own actions. Wow. What a concept.

The Metcalf family patriarch added that his son’s murder and subsequent happenings have altered his outlook on society, citing the term “black fatigue.”

“From day one I said this was never about race. Please don’t make it about race and don’t politicize it. And what did you do? You chose both. The race card. Black fatigue. It’s real. I’m sorry. You have embarrassed your own culture and race,” he said.

The father’s angry message came as he delivered a powerful victim impact statement following Anthony’s sentencing earlier this week demanding the murderer look at him, saying, “You can’t even look me in the eye right now, but you can stab my (expletive) son in the heart.”

“You failed your parents, you failed yourself, and you failed society… You don’t belong in this community,” the dad told his son’s killer.

Karmelo was sentenced to 35 years in prison on Tuesday for killing Metcalf at a track meet in Frisco, Texas, in April 2025.

 

 

 

 

 

 

260509 – Law and Grace

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Engages John W. Ritenbaugh’s ‘Grace and Law’ section from ‘Prepare to Meet Your God! (Part Five): Religion and Holiness’ (Forerunner / cgg.org, October 29, 2025), received via cgg.org daily Berean email distribution May 8, 2026, anchored on Amos 5:25.

Affirms Ritenbaugh’s central thesis substantively: that grace and obedience are inseparable halves of one whole, that Mount Sinai followed Passover for a reason, that the law was given to the redeemed as a pattern of life rather than as a means of redemption. The Christos framework agrees with this on more points than it disagrees with.

Deepens with: (1) the chronological-theological argument from the Exodus sequence — Passover, Red Sea, then Sinai; (2) the Hebrew etymology of kapporet (Mercy Seat) from kaphar ‘to cover’ — the cover sat above the law-tablets, blood was sprinkled on the cover, God’s presence dwelt above; (3) the New Testament typology in Hebrews 9:5 and Romans 3:25 where hilasterion (Greek for kapporet) is applied directly to Christ at the cross; (4) Romans 3:31’s ‘we establish the law’ as the apostolic answer to the antinomian distortion; (5) Romans 6:1-2 (‘shall we sin that grace may abound? God forbid’) and Romans 8:3-4 (the law’s righteousness fulfilled in those who walk after the Spirit) as the broader pattern; (6) brief, respectful note on the application question (which law) and the threefold-division tradition (Reformed, Lutheran, Catholic, Wesleyan), naming where the Christos framework parts ways with the CGG/Armstrongite tradition’s uniform application without making it the focus of the essay.

Connects to fellowship work: the IDM charter §7 ethical commitments framed as grace-and-obedience working together — ministry character produces the disposition, ethical commitments are the visible shape of the disposition, neither earned nor optional. The right relationship between Mount Sinai and the Red Sea.

Crescendo on 1 John 2:3-6 read in full (‘he that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar’ — the apostolic verdict on the question Ritenbaugh is engaging). Voice diagnostics per templates/authors_voice.md: steelman before extension; multi-level descent (chronology, lexicography, NT typology, Pauline argument, application); definitional precision (hilasterion, katargoumen, histanomen, teteleiōtai); scriptural crescendo. Zero direct quotes from Ritenbaugh source per templates/copyright_discipline.md — fully paraphrased substance throughout, audited against the source for verbatim and close-paraphrase issues before commit.

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+<p>The daily Berean email this morning carried an excerpt from the late John W. Ritenbaugh, drawn from a longer essay he co-authored with his son Richard T. Ritenbaugh, titled <em>Prepare to Meet Your God! (Part Five): Religion and Holiness</em>. The excerpt is short — perhaps eight paragraphs — and it is anchored on a single rhetorical question from the prophet Amos:</p>
+
+<p><em>Did you offer Me sacrifices and offerings in the wilderness forty years, O house of Israel?</em> — Amos 5:25</p>
+
+<p>Ritenbaugh’s answer to the rhetorical question is the right one: yes, the people did sacrifice in the wilderness; but sacrifice was not the whole of what God had asked of them, and a sacrificial life detached from an obedient life is not what God wants from a redeemed people. From this answer he develops one of the more important theological points in the Forerunner archive — that grace and obedience are not in tension, that the law and the blood are not alternatives, that Mount Sinai is not the cancellation of Passover but its proper sequel.</p>
+
+<p>I want to commend this point to the fellowship, deepen it from a few angles Ritenbaugh’s brief excerpt does not have space to develop, and bring it back to how we are trying to live as a community. There is more substantive agreement between the Christos framework and Ritenbaugh’s position on this question than there is on some others, and I want to honor that.</p>
+
+<h2>The order of events in the wilderness</h2>
+
+<p>The chronological structure of the Exodus narrative is itself the argument Ritenbaugh is making. The sequence God established was:</p>
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+<p>A lamb is killed; the blood is placed on the doorposts; the destroyer passes over (Exodus 12).</p>
+
+<p>The people are led out of Egypt across the Red Sea; the pursuing army is destroyed; Israel is, in the most concrete sense possible, freed (Exodus 14-15).</p>
+
+<p><em>Then</em> — only then, after the redemption is finished — does the column of cloud and fire bring them to Sinai, where the law is given (Exodus 19-20).</p>
+
+<p>The people who hear the Ten Words from the smoking mountain are not slaves earning their way out of bondage. They are former slaves who have already been delivered, listening to the One who delivered them describe the shape of the life He intends for them now that they are free. The law arrives as a pattern, not as a price. The redemption is complete before a single commandment is uttered. Whatever else the law is for, it is not for purchasing a freedom that has already been given.</p>
+
+<p>This is the structural fact Ritenbaugh leans on, and it is the fact the New Testament repeatedly draws back to. <em>Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ</em> (Romans 5:1) precedes, in Paul’s letter, the long discussion of how the redeemed should walk that follows in chapters 6 through 8. The justification is finished. The walking comes after. The walking is not the ground of the justification. It is the visible shape of a life that justification has already changed.</p>
+
+<p>This ordering matters because both of the great distortions of Christian teaching get this ordering wrong, in opposite directions. Legalism treats the law as something the believer obeys in order to earn standing with God. Antinomianism treats the law as something the believer no longer needs to bother with because grace has settled the matter. The first reverses the Exodus sequence by putting Sinai before the Red Sea. The second deletes Sinai from the sequence altogether and pretends only the Red Sea matters. Both misread the text. Ritenbaugh’s reading — Sinai <em>follows</em> Passover, and <em>therefore</em> the obedient life follows the redeemed life — is the right reading, and it is the reading the broader catholic Christian witness has held in its better moments across two thousand years.</p>
+
+<h2>What sat inside the ark, and what sat above it</h2>
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+<p>Ritenbaugh draws particular attention to a piece of furniture that I want to draw out further. The Ark of the Covenant, kept in the innermost room of the Tabernacle and later of the Temple, was a wooden chest overlaid in gold. Inside the chest, eventually, were three things: a portion of manna, Aaron’s rod that had budded, and the two stone tablets on which the Decalogue had been written by the finger of God (Hebrews 9:4). On top of the chest sat a separate, smaller piece, beaten from a single sheet of pure gold, with two cherubim of one piece extending their wings forward over it. This piece was called, in Hebrew, the <em>kapporet</em>. It is the same noun-root from which the Day of Atonement, <em>Yom Kippur</em>, takes its name. The verb form means <em>to cover, to wipe, to atone for</em>. The piece itself is, etymologically, the cover. The cover. The covering thing. It is what is over the law.</p>
+
+<p>This is what English Bibles call the Mercy Seat.</p>
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+<p>The image, taken in its full geometric sense, is theologically dense. God’s localized presence sat above it, between the wings of the cherubim. The blood of the atonement sacrifice, on one day a year, was sprinkled on it by the high priest. And underneath it, inside the box it covered, were the stone tablets of God’s holy demand on His people. The arrangement was deliberate. The mercy was over the law, sprinkled with blood, with God’s presence brooding above. It was not that mercy replaced the law or eliminated it. The law was still there, intact, in the same chamber, contained in the same chest. What was different was that mercy <em>covered</em> it. Atonement was the lid that allowed the holy God to dwell in the same room as a people who could not, on any given day, claim to have kept what was written on the stones underneath.</p>
+
+<p>The New Testament does not let this image go. When the writer to the Hebrews describes the Tabernacle furniture, he uses the Greek noun <em>hilasterion</em> to translate the <em>kapporet</em> (Hebrews 9:5). When Paul reaches for the deepest possible single image of what Christ has done at the cross, he uses the same word: <em>whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation</em> — <em>hilasterion</em> — <em>through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past</em> (Romans 3:25). Christ Himself, in Paul’s argument, is the Mercy Seat. The cover of the Ark, the place where the blood is sprinkled and the presence dwells, the lid over the law. That image lands at the cross. The blood underneath the brooding presence, the law preserved beneath, the mercy that covers without canceling, the presence that draws near because the covering is in place — all of it converges on the body broken at Golgotha and the blood that ran from it.</p>
+
+<p>And then, three verses after using <em>hilasterion</em> of Christ, Paul asks the question that the antinomian distortion has been answering wrongly ever since:</p>
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+<p><em>Do we then make void the law through faith? God forbid: yea, we establish the law.</em> — Romans 3:31</p>
+
+<p>The ordinary translation of <em>katargoumen</em> is <em>abolish</em> or <em>render inoperative</em>. Paul is asking, after the longest argument for justification by faith ever written: have we abolished the law by what we have just said? His answer is the strongest negative the Greek language can carry: <em>me genoito</em> — <em>let it not be</em>. <em>God forbid</em>. The faith that grasps the <em>hilasterion</em> does not abolish the law; it <em>establishes</em> it. Paul’s word for <em>establish</em>, <em>histanomen</em>, is the same word used elsewhere of confirming or making firm. Faith makes the law firm. Grace gives the law its standing in the believer’s life.</p>
+
+<p>This is the same point Ritenbaugh is pressing toward in the Forerunner essay, and it is the point at the heart of the broad New Testament witness. Grace does not retire the law. Grace is what makes the law livable.</p>
+
+<h2>Where Paul takes it next</h2>
+
+<p>Romans is not done with the question after chapter three. Paul comes back to it in chapter six, where he names directly the antinomian distortion of his own argument:</p>
+
+<p><em>What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?</em> — Romans 6:1-2</p>
+
+<p>Some hearer of Paul’s preaching had evidently drawn the conclusion that if grace covers sin, then the more sin, the more grace, and therefore the more sin, the better. Paul does not hedge in his rebuttal. The same <em>me genoito</em> — <em>God forbid</em> — that protects the establishment of the law in chapter three protects the moral seriousness of the redeemed life in chapter six. The redeemed have <em>died</em> to sin. The grammar of redemption is not <em>now I can sin freely</em>; it is <em>now I have been crucified with Christ, that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth I should not serve sin</em> (Romans 6:6).</p>
+
+<p>By the time Paul reaches chapter eight, the picture has fully emerged. The law was holy, just, good (7:12). The problem was never the law; the problem was the flesh that could not keep it (7:14-25). The solution was not the abolition of the law but the sending of the Son and the indwelling of the Spirit:</p>
+
+<p><em>For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh: that the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.</em> — Romans 8:3-4</p>
+
+<p>Read that sentence carefully. The righteousness of the law is <em>fulfilled in us</em>. Not abolished. Not suspended. Not made optional. <em>Fulfilled in us, who walk after the Spirit</em>. The grace that gives the Spirit is the grace that makes the law’s requirement realizable in the redeemed life. The law and the Spirit are not opposed. The Spirit is what makes the law a description of how the believer actually lives, rather than an indictment of how the believer continually fails to live.</p>
+
+<p>This is what Ritenbaugh’s two-halves framing is reaching for. The blood covers; the Spirit empowers; the redeemed life is one in which the law’s righteousness is increasingly visible. Sanctification is the name for this. The believer, growing under grace, comes to look more and more like the holy God whose pattern of life the law was always describing.</p>
+
+<h2>The application question, briefly</h2>
+
+<p>I do not want to leave a question unanswered that the careful reader will already be asking. <em>Which</em> law are we talking about? The Decalogue? The dietary laws of Leviticus 11? The civil penalties for theft and adultery? The festival calendar with its new moons and seventh days?</p>
+
+<p>The wider Christian tradition has worked through this question in different ways. The Reformed branch has historically distinguished between moral law (the Decalogue, summed up in Christ’s two great commandments — love of God and love of neighbor), ceremonial law (the sacrificial system, the dietary code, the festival calendar), and civil law (the penalties of the Israelite theocracy). On this division, the moral law is eternally binding, the ceremonial law has been fulfilled in Christ in the sense that what it foreshadowed has now arrived, and the civil law was given to a particular people in a particular polity and does not bind Christians as such. The Lutheran branch has worked the question through the law-gospel distinction. The Catholic tradition has worked it through the natural-law and divine-positive-law framework. The Wesleyan branch has emphasized progressive sanctification more than the threefold partition.</p>
+
+<p>Ritenbaugh’s tradition — the Church of the Great God lineage, descended from Herbert W. Armstrong’s Worldwide Church of God — has historically rejected the threefold-division and applied the law more uniformly to Christians, including the seventh-day Sabbath and the Mosaic festival calendar. This is a real difference between Ritenbaugh’s tradition and the Christos framework, which broadly inhabits the Reformed-influenced threefold-division view. The difference is not nothing, and it bears on how a fellowship community structures its weekly and annual life.</p>
+
+<p>But it is not the difference I want to dwell on in this essay. The disagreement on which law is binding presupposes the agreement on which Ritenbaugh and the broader catholic Christian witness stand together: that the redeemed are called to obedience, that grace is not license, that Mount Sinai followed Passover for a reason, that the Mercy Seat sat above the law and did not replace it. On the underlying point — that grace and obedience are inseparable, that sanctification is real, that a Christianity which has dropped the law has dropped half of itself — Ritenbaugh and we are on the same side. The application question is a fellowship-level discernment, not a fellowship-dividing one.</p>
+
+<h2>Where the contemporary church needs this</h2>
+
+<p>The American evangelical landscape has, for a generation now, been pulled toward a kind of grace-only preaching that has retired the law in practice if not in confession. Phrases circulate that are almost designed to soften the moral seriousness of the redeemed life: <em>grace is unmerited favor</em> (true, as far as it goes, but spoken in a way that implies the favor never asks anything of the favored); <em>we are saved by grace, not by works</em> (true, as Paul says, but spoken in a way that makes works invisible afterward); <em>don’t let anyone put you under the law</em> (true in some senses, dangerous in others). What gets lost is precisely the structure Ritenbaugh is recovering — that grace and obedience are not adversaries, that the redeemed life is a <em>life</em>, that the saved person is being made into someone whose life looks more and more like the One who saved them.</p>
+
+<p>The other distortion, legalism, exists too — particularly in some immigrant church communities, in some conservative-Reformed contexts, and in some sectarian movements that Christianize their own preferred set of cultural rules and call them God’s law. Both distortions miss what Ritenbaugh is naming. The legalist reverses the Exodus order and puts the law before the redemption. The antinomian deletes the law from the sequence and pretends only the redemption matters. Neither honors the actual structure of the biblical narrative, the actual furniture in the Holy of Holies, the actual argument of Romans, or the actual life Christ called His followers to live.</p>
+
+<p>For our fellowship — and for me as I write this — the call is the same one Amos was bringing to the northern kingdom in 760 BC. Are we sacrificing without obeying? Are we attending the gathering without changing how we conduct our business? Are we showing up to the feasts without examining whether we have left the feast different from how we arrived? Ritenbaugh’s reading of Amos applies. The question presses the same way now as then. Sacrifice that is not joined to obedience is sacrifice God will not have.</p>
+
+<p>The Ideomotion charter we have spent the past several days revising is, if it works as intended, a small and concrete instance of grace-and-obedience working together. The ministry character of the work is not earned by the obedience; the obedience flows from the ministry character. The §7 ethical commitments — non-coercion, informed consent, no exploitation of vulnerability, truthful claims — are not legalisms tacked onto a Christian-branded business. They are the visible shape of a redeemed posture toward the customer. The grace gives the disposition; the obedience is what the disposition looks like in practice. To attempt the obedience without the grace would be to reverse the Exodus order. To claim the grace without the obedience would be to delete Sinai from the sequence. We are trying to keep them in the right relationship — Mount Sinai after the Red Sea, the law beneath the Mercy Seat, the redeemed life that obeys because it has first been freed.</p>
+
+<h2>Crescendo</h2>
+
+<p>The verse I want to close on is not from Romans this time. It is from the first letter of John, a letter written, we believe, by the apostle who lay closest to Jesus at the last supper and who outlived all the others to see the end of the apostolic age. John has watched a generation come and go. He has watched the gospel survive Nero’s fires and Domitian’s exiles. And in his old age he writes — pastorally, and with the bluntness of an old man who has earned the right to say what he means:</p>
+
+<p><em>And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments. He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But whoso keepeth his word, in him verily is the love of God perfected: hereby know we that we are in him. He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also to walk, even as he walked.</em> — 1 John 2:3-6</p>
+
+<p>This is the apostolic verdict on the question Ritenbaugh is engaging. The test of whether we know Christ is whether we keep His commandments. Not because keeping them earns the knowledge, but because the knowing of Christ produces the keeping. A person who claims to know Him without keeping is, in John’s plain word, a <em>liar</em>. The Greek term is <em>pseustes</em>, the same word used elsewhere of those who are constitutionally untruthful. John is not soft-pedaling. The Christianity that brackets out obedience is, on the apostolic reading, not Christianity at all. It is a self-deception that has borrowed the vocabulary.</p>
+
+<p>The opposite is also true. The one who keeps the word — the one whose life shows the visible shape of obedience — is the one in whom <em>the love of God is perfected</em>. The Greek for <em>perfected</em> is <em>teteleiōtai</em>, from <em>telos</em>: brought to its end, brought to maturity, brought to its intended completion. The keeping of the commandments is what brings the love of God to its full stature in the believer. Not a substitute for grace. A consummation of grace.</p>
+
+<p>That is what Ritenbaugh is naming, and that is what I commend to the fellowship for our discussion. The grace and the obedience are not adversaries. They are the front and back of the same coin, the redemption-then-Sinai sequence, the Mercy-Seat-above-the-law geometry, the Spirit-fulfilling-the-law-in-us in Romans 8 and the keeping-his-commandments in 1 John 2. We will disagree at the edges with Ritenbaugh’s tradition on which specific commandments are in view in our practical application — that is a real and not-trivial disagreement and we should not pretend it isn’t. But on the central matter, on the structural point that the redeemed are called to obey and that obedience is the visible fruit of grace, we and Ritenbaugh stand together.</p>
+
+<p>There is a famine of this teaching in much of the contemporary church. There is a famine of the truthful word that Amos warned would come and that John warned would come and that we are, perhaps, watching arrive. The remedy is not legalism, and it is not antinomian sentimentalism. It is the recovery of the actual gospel — the gospel in which a holy God has made a way, through the blood of His Son, for an unholy people to dwell with Him; and in which that same God expects, of the people He has made His own, that they will increasingly look like Him. The Mercy Seat above the law. The blood that covers. The Spirit that fulfills. The life that shows.</p>
+
+<p>That is the religion God will have. May we, by His mercy, increasingly become the people He calls us to be.</p>
+
+<hr>
+
+<h2>Sources</h2>
+
+<p>John W. Ritenbaugh and Richard T. Ritenbaugh, <em>Prepare to Meet Your God! (Part Five): Religion and Holiness</em>, Forerunner, October 29, 2025. Published by Church of the Great God at cgg.org/index.cfm/library/article/id/1941. The excerpt engaged in this essay is the section titled “Grace and Law,” received via cgg.org daily Berean email distribution, May 8, 2026.</p>
+
+<p>Internal Renaissance Ministries references: `CFE_christos_fellowship_essays/essays/260508-the-buick-salesman-and-the-great-commission.md` (companion essay engaging Charles Whitaker on proselytism, also from the cgg.org Forerunner archive); `IDM_ideomotion_ministry/IDM_charter.md` v0.3 §7 (the ethics-and-non-coercion section referenced in the application paragraph above).</p>
+
+<p>Scripture references in this essay are King James Version: Exodus 12; Exodus 14-15; Exodus 19-20; Hebrews 9:4-5; Romans 3:25, 31; Romans 5:1; Romans 6:1-2, 6; Romans 7:12, 14-25; Romans 8:3-4; 1 John 2:3-6; Amos 5:25.</p>
+
+<p>Hebrew lexical references: <em>kapporet</em> (Strong’s H3727), root <em>kaphar</em> (H3722); related: <em>Yom Kippur</em>, <em>kippurim</em>. Greek lexical references: <em>hilasterion</em> (Strong’s G2435), <em>katargoumen</em> (G2673), <em>histanomen</em> (G2476), <em>me genoito</em> (G3361 + G1096), <em>teteleiōtai</em> (G5048).</p>
+
+<p>Theological-tradition references for the threefold-division of the law mentioned in the application section: Westminster Confession of Faith XIX (Reformed); Lutheran Formula of Concord, Solid Declaration VI (law-gospel distinction); Aquinas, <em>Summa Theologiae</em> I-II Q.99 (Catholic). These are not engaged in detail above but are the tradition the application discussion draws from.</p>
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+title: “The Law Beneath the Mercy Seat: On John Ritenbaugh, Amos 5:25, and the Harmony of Grace and Obedience”
+author: “Thomas Lee Abshier, ND”
+date: 2026-05-08
+module: CFE
+topics: [grace, law, obedience, sanctification, atonement, mercy-seat, kapporet, hilasterion, ritenbaugh, amos]
+status: DRAFT
+type: essay
+—
+
+# The Law Beneath the Mercy Seat: On John Ritenbaugh, Amos 5:25, and the Harmony of Grace and Obedience
+
+The daily Berean email this morning carried an excerpt from the late John W. Ritenbaugh, drawn from a longer essay he co-authored with his son Richard T. Ritenbaugh, titled *Prepare to Meet Your God! (Part Five): Religion and Holiness*. The excerpt is short — perhaps eight paragraphs — and it is anchored on a single rhetorical question from the prophet Amos:
+
+*Did you offer Me sacrifices and offerings in the wilderness forty years, O house of Israel?* — Amos 5:25
+
+Ritenbaugh’s answer to the rhetorical question is the right one: yes, the people did sacrifice in the wilderness; but sacrifice was not the whole of what God had asked of them, and a sacrificial life detached from an obedient life is not what God wants from a redeemed people. From this answer he develops one of the more important theological points in the Forerunner archive — that grace and obedience are not in tension, that the law and the blood are not alternatives, that Mount Sinai is not the cancellation of Passover but its proper sequel.
+
+I want to commend this point to the fellowship, deepen it from a few angles Ritenbaugh’s brief excerpt does not have space to develop, and bring it back to how we are trying to live as a community. There is more substantive agreement between the Christos framework and Ritenbaugh’s position on this question than there is on some others, and I want to honor that.
+
+## The order of events in the wilderness
+
+The chronological structure of the Exodus narrative is itself the argument Ritenbaugh is making. The sequence God established was:
+
+A lamb is killed; the blood is placed on the doorposts; the destroyer passes over (Exodus 12).
+
+The people are led out of Egypt across the Red Sea; the pursuing army is destroyed; Israel is, in the most concrete sense possible, freed (Exodus 14-15).
+
+*Then* — only then, after the redemption is finished — does the column of cloud and fire bring them to Sinai, where the law is given (Exodus 19-20).
+
+The people who hear the Ten Words from the smoking mountain are not slaves earning their way out of bondage. They are former slaves who have already been delivered, listening to the One who delivered them describe the shape of the life He intends for them now that they are free. The law arrives as a pattern, not as a price. The redemption is complete before a single commandment is uttered. Whatever else the law is for, it is not for purchasing a freedom that has already been given.
+
+This is the structural fact Ritenbaugh leans on, and it is the fact the New Testament repeatedly draws back to. *Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ* (Romans 5:1) precedes, in Paul’s letter, the long discussion of how the redeemed should walk that follows in chapters 6 through 8. The justification is finished. The walking comes after. The walking is not the ground of the justification. It is the visible shape of a life that justification has already changed.
+
+This ordering matters because both of the great distortions of Christian teaching get this ordering wrong, in opposite directions. Legalism treats the law as something the believer obeys in order to earn standing with God. Antinomianism treats the law as something the believer no longer needs to bother with because grace has settled the matter. The first reverses the Exodus sequence by putting Sinai before the Red Sea. The second deletes Sinai from the sequence altogether and pretends only the Red Sea matters. Both misread the text. Ritenbaugh’s reading — Sinai *follows* Passover, and *therefore* the obedient life follows the redeemed life — is the right reading, and it is the reading the broader catholic Christian witness has held in its better moments across two thousand years.
+
+## What sat inside the ark, and what sat above it
+
+Ritenbaugh draws particular attention to a piece of furniture that I want to draw out further. The Ark of the Covenant, kept in the innermost room of the Tabernacle and later of the Temple, was a wooden chest overlaid in gold. Inside the chest, eventually, were three things: a portion of manna, Aaron’s rod that had budded, and the two stone tablets on which the Decalogue had been written by the finger of God (Hebrews 9:4). On top of the chest sat a separate, smaller piece, beaten from a single sheet of pure gold, with two cherubim of one piece extending their wings forward over it. This piece was called, in Hebrew, the *kapporet*. It is the same noun-root from which the Day of Atonement, *Yom Kippur*, takes its name. The verb form means *to cover, to wipe, to atone for*. The piece itself is, etymologically, the cover. The cover. The covering thing. It is what is over the law.
+
+This is what English Bibles call the Mercy Seat.
+
+The image, taken in its full geometric sense, is theologically dense. God’s localized presence sat above it, between the wings of the cherubim. The blood of the atonement sacrifice, on one day a year, was sprinkled on it by the high priest. And underneath it, inside the box it covered, were the stone tablets of God’s holy demand on His people. The arrangement was deliberate. The mercy was over the law, sprinkled with blood, with God’s presence brooding above. It was not that mercy replaced the law or eliminated it. The law was still there, intact, in the same chamber, contained in the same chest. What was different was that mercy *covered* it. Atonement was the lid that allowed the holy God to dwell in the same room as a people who could not, on any given day, claim to have kept what was written on the stones underneath.
+
+The New Testament does not let this image go. When the writer to the Hebrews describes the Tabernacle furniture, he uses the Greek noun *hilasterion* to translate the *kapporet* (Hebrews 9:5). When Paul reaches for the deepest possible single image of what Christ has done at the cross, he uses the same word: *whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation* — *hilasterion* — *through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past* (Romans 3:25). Christ Himself, in Paul’s argument, is the Mercy Seat. The cover of the Ark, the place where the blood is sprinkled and the presence dwells, the lid over the law. That image lands at the cross. The blood underneath the brooding presence, the law preserved beneath, the mercy that covers without canceling, the presence that draws near because the covering is in place — all of it converges on the body broken at Golgotha and the blood that ran from it.
+
+And then, three verses after using *hilasterion* of Christ, Paul asks the question that the antinomian distortion has been answering wrongly ever since:
+
+*Do we then make void the law through faith? God forbid: yea, we establish the law.* — Romans 3:31
+
+The ordinary translation of *katargoumen* is *abolish* or *render inoperative*. Paul is asking, after the longest argument for justification by faith ever written: have we abolished the law by what we have just said? His answer is the strongest negative the Greek language can carry: *me genoito* — *let it not be*. *God forbid*. The faith that grasps the *hilasterion* does not abolish the law; it *establishes* it. Paul’s word for *establish*, *histanomen*, is the same word used elsewhere of confirming or making firm. Faith makes the law firm. Grace gives the law its standing in the believer’s life.
+
+This is the same point Ritenbaugh is pressing toward in the Forerunner essay, and it is the point at the heart of the broad New Testament witness. Grace does not retire the law. Grace is what makes the law livable.
+
+## Where Paul takes it next
+
+Romans is not done with the question after chapter three. Paul comes back to it in chapter six, where he names directly the antinomian distortion of his own argument:
+
+*What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?* — Romans 6:1-2
+
+Some hearer of Paul’s preaching had evidently drawn the conclusion that if grace covers sin, then the more sin, the more grace, and therefore the more sin, the better. Paul does not hedge in his rebuttal. The same *me genoito* — *God forbid* — that protects the establishment of the law in chapter three protects the moral seriousness of the redeemed life in chapter six. The redeemed have *died* to sin. The grammar of redemption is not *now I can sin freely*; it is *now I have been crucified with Christ, that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth I should not serve sin* (Romans 6:6).
+
+By the time Paul reaches chapter eight, the picture has fully emerged. The law was holy, just, good (7:12). The problem was never the law; the problem was the flesh that could not keep it (7:14-25). The solution was not the abolition of the law but the sending of the Son and the indwelling of the Spirit:
+
+*For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh: that the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.* — Romans 8:3-4
+
+Read that sentence carefully. The righteousness of the law is *fulfilled in us*. Not abolished. Not suspended. Not made optional. *Fulfilled in us, who walk after the Spirit*. The grace that gives the Spirit is the grace that makes the law’s requirement realizable in the redeemed life. The law and the Spirit are not opposed. The Spirit is what makes the law a description of how the believer actually lives, rather than an indictment of how the believer continually fails to live.
+
+This is what Ritenbaugh’s two-halves framing is reaching for. The blood covers; the Spirit empowers; the redeemed life is one in which the law’s righteousness is increasingly visible. Sanctification is the name for this. The believer, growing under grace, comes to look more and more like the holy God whose pattern of life the law was always describing.
+
+## The application question, briefly
+
+I do not want to leave a question unanswered that the careful reader will already be asking. *Which* law are we talking about? The Decalogue? The dietary laws of Leviticus 11? The civil penalties for theft and adultery? The festival calendar with its new moons and seventh days?
+
+The wider Christian tradition has worked through this question in different ways. The Reformed branch has historically distinguished between moral law (the Decalogue, summed up in Christ’s two great commandments — love of God and love of neighbor), ceremonial law (the sacrificial system, the dietary code, the festival calendar), and civil law (the penalties of the Israelite theocracy). On this division, the moral law is eternally binding, the ceremonial law has been fulfilled in Christ in the sense that what it foreshadowed has now arrived, and the civil law was given to a particular people in a particular polity and does not bind Christians as such. The Lutheran branch has worked the question through the law-gospel distinction. The Catholic tradition has worked it through the natural-law and divine-positive-law framework. The Wesleyan branch has emphasized progressive sanctification more than the threefold partition.
+
+Ritenbaugh’s tradition — the Church of the Great God lineage, descended from Herbert W. Armstrong’s Worldwide Church of God — has historically rejected the threefold-division and applied the law more uniformly to Christians, including the seventh-day Sabbath and the Mosaic festival calendar. This is a real difference between Ritenbaugh’s tradition and the Christos framework, which broadly inhabits the Reformed-influenced threefold-division view. The difference is not nothing, and it bears on how a fellowship community structures its weekly and annual life.
+
+But it is not the difference I want to dwell on in this essay. The disagreement on which law is binding presupposes the agreement on which Ritenbaugh and the broader catholic Christian witness stand together: that the redeemed are called to obedience, that grace is not license, that Mount Sinai followed Passover for a reason, that the Mercy Seat sat above the law and did not replace it. On the underlying point — that grace and obedience are inseparable, that sanctification is real, that a Christianity which has dropped the law has dropped half of itself — Ritenbaugh and we are on the same side. The application question is a fellowship-level discernment, not a fellowship-dividing one.
+
+## Where the contemporary church needs this
+
+The American evangelical landscape has, for a generation now, been pulled toward a kind of grace-only preaching that has retired the law in practice if not in confession. Phrases circulate that are almost designed to soften the moral seriousness of the redeemed life: *grace is unmerited favor* (true, as far as it goes, but spoken in a way that implies the favor never asks anything of the favored); *we are saved by grace, not by works* (true, as Paul says, but spoken in a way that makes works invisible afterward); *don’t let anyone put you under the law* (true in some senses, dangerous in others). What gets lost is precisely the structure Ritenbaugh is recovering — that grace and obedience are not adversaries, that the redeemed life is a *life*, that the saved person is being made into someone whose life looks more and more like the One who saved them.
+
+The other distortion, legalism, exists too — particularly in some immigrant church communities, in some conservative-Reformed contexts, and in some sectarian movements that Christianize their own preferred set of cultural rules and call them God’s law. Both distortions miss what Ritenbaugh is naming. The legalist reverses the Exodus order and puts the law before the redemption. The antinomian deletes the law from the sequence and pretends only the redemption matters. Neither honors the actual structure of the biblical narrative, the actual furniture in the Holy of Holies, the actual argument of Romans, or the actual life Christ called His followers to live.
+
+For our fellowship — and for me as I write this — the call is the same one Amos was bringing to the northern kingdom in 760 BC. Are we sacrificing without obeying? Are we attending the gathering without changing how we conduct our business? Are we showing up to the feasts without examining whether we have left the feast different from how we arrived? Ritenbaugh’s reading of Amos applies. The question presses the same way now as then. Sacrifice that is not joined to obedience is sacrifice God will not have.
+
+The Ideomotion charter we have spent the past several days revising is, if it works as intended, a small and concrete instance of grace-and-obedience working together. The ministry character of the work is not earned by the obedience; the obedience flows from the ministry character. The §7 ethical commitments — non-coercion, informed consent, no exploitation of vulnerability, truthful claims — are not legalisms tacked onto a Christian-branded business. They are the visible shape of a redeemed posture toward the customer. The grace gives the disposition; the obedience is what the disposition looks like in practice. To attempt the obedience without the grace would be to reverse the Exodus order. To claim the grace without the obedience would be to delete Sinai from the sequence. We are trying to keep them in the right relationship — Mount Sinai after the Red Sea, the law beneath the Mercy Seat, the redeemed life that obeys because it has first been freed.
+
+## Crescendo
+
+The verse I want to close on is not from Romans this time. It is from the first letter of John, a letter written, we believe, by the apostle who lay closest to Jesus at the last supper and who outlived all the others to see the end of the apostolic age. John has watched a generation come and go. He has watched the gospel survive Nero’s fires and Domitian’s exiles. And in his old age he writes — pastorally, and with the bluntness of an old man who has earned the right to say what he means:
+
+*And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments. He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But whoso keepeth his word, in him verily is the love of God perfected: hereby know we that we are in him. He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also to walk, even as he walked.* — 1 John 2:3-6
+
+This is the apostolic verdict on the question Ritenbaugh is engaging. The test of whether we know Christ is whether we keep His commandments. Not because keeping them earns the knowledge, but because the knowing of Christ produces the keeping. A person who claims to know Him without keeping is, in John’s plain word, a *liar*. The Greek term is *pseustes*, the same word used elsewhere of those who are constitutionally untruthful. John is not soft-pedaling. The Christianity that brackets out obedience is, on the apostolic reading, not Christianity at all. It is a self-deception that has borrowed the vocabulary.
+
+The opposite is also true. The one who keeps the word — the one whose life shows the visible shape of obedience — is the one in whom *the love of God is perfected*. The Greek for *perfected* is *teteleiōtai*, from *telos*: brought to its end, brought to maturity, brought to its intended completion. The keeping of the commandments is what brings the love of God to its full stature in the believer. Not a substitute for grace. A consummation of grace.
+
+That is what Ritenbaugh is naming, and that is what I commend to the fellowship for our discussion. The grace and the obedience are not adversaries. They are the front and back of the same coin, the redemption-then-Sinai sequence, the Mercy-Seat-above-the-law geometry, the Spirit-fulfilling-the-law-in-us in Romans 8 and the keeping-his-commandments in 1 John 2. We will disagree at the edges with Ritenbaugh’s tradition on which specific commandments are in view in our practical application — that is a real and not-trivial disagreement and we should not pretend it isn’t. But on the central matter, on the structural point that the redeemed are called to obey and that obedience is the visible fruit of grace, we and Ritenbaugh stand together.
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+There is a famine of this teaching in much of the contemporary church. There is a famine of the truthful word that Amos warned would come and that John warned would come and that we are, perhaps, watching arrive. The remedy is not legalism, and it is not antinomian sentimentalism. It is the recovery of the actual gospel — the gospel in which a holy God has made a way, through the blood of His Son, for an unholy people to dwell with Him; and in which that same God expects, of the people He has made His own, that they will increasingly look like Him. The Mercy Seat above the law. The blood that covers. The Spirit that fulfills. The life that shows.
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+That is the religion God will have. May we, by His mercy, increasingly become the people He calls us to be.
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+John W. Ritenbaugh and Richard T. Ritenbaugh, *Prepare to Meet Your God! (Part Five): Religion and Holiness*, Forerunner, October 29, 2025. Published by Church of the Great God at cgg.org/index.cfm/library/article/id/1941. The excerpt engaged in this essay is the section titled “Grace and Law,” received via cgg.org daily Berean email distribution, May 8, 2026.
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+Internal Renaissance Ministries references: `CFE_christos_fellowship_essays/essays/260508-the-buick-salesman-and-the-great-commission.md` (companion essay engaging Charles Whitaker on proselytism, also from the cgg.org Forerunner archive); `IDM_ideomotion_ministry/IDM_charter.md` v0.3 §7 (the ethics-and-non-coercion section referenced in the application paragraph above).
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+Scripture references in this essay are King James Version: Exodus 12; Exodus 14-15; Exodus 19-20; Hebrews 9:4-5; Romans 3:25, 31; Romans 5:1; Romans 6:1-2, 6; Romans 7:12, 14-25; Romans 8:3-4; 1 John 2:3-6; Amos 5:25.
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+Hebrew lexical references: *kapporet* (Strong’s H3727), root *kaphar* (H3722); related: *Yom Kippur*, *kippurim*. Greek lexical references: *hilasterion* (Strong’s G2435), *katargoumen* (G2673), *histanomen* (G2476), *me genoito* (G3361 + G1096), *teteleiōtai* (G5048).
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+Theological-tradition references for the threefold-division of the law mentioned in the application section: Westminster Confession of Faith XIX (Reformed); Lutheran Formula of Concord, Solid Declaration VI (law-gospel distinction); Aquinas, *Summa Theologiae* I-II Q.99 (Catholic). These are not engaged in detail above but are the tradition the application discussion draws from.

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260509 – On Being Alone

Liked, But Not Known: On Justin Brown and the Witness That Comes First

Fellowship Essay | by Thomas Lee Abshier, ND  8 May, 2026

Veg Out: Loneliness Essay, by Justin Brown

Charlie forwarded me an article this week from VegOut by Justin Brown, a writer based in Singapore, on a particular kind of loneliness — the kind that lives inside lives that look full from the outside. I want to commend it to the fellowship before I respond, because Brown sees something clearly that the church often does not see, and he names it with a precision I find pastorally useful. The piece is not long; it would be worth your time to read it before you read this.

Brown opens the article with a forty-one-year-old woman he calls Maya. She runs a small design studio in Lisbon. By her own count, she has on the order of sixty close friends. On her last birthday, forty of them sent her messages. She read each of them on the balcony, was touched by them, and then sat with the phone in her hand and tried to recall the most recent occasion on which she had said something honest about herself and the other person had followed up with a real question. The recollection refused to come.

That, Brown says, is the loneliness this article is about. It has nothing to do with how many contacts are in the phone.

What Brown sees rightly

I want to honor three things he sees before I add anything to them.

The first is the diagnosis itself. Loneliness, Brown argues, does not come from having no one around you; it comes from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to you. (Aside: I don’t know if the assumption of this particular aloneness is the ultimate end of all loneliness, but it is an important type of loneliness.) That is a real definition of a real condition, and it is more accurate than the cultural assumption that loneliness is a function of the volume of social contact. On Brown’s account, the right test is not the number of contacts in your phone. The right test is the question of whether anyone you currently know would register a difference if a slightly less-present version of you walked through the next week’s worth of social engagements. Most people, he says, would not. Most of us have been polite for too many years to ask, and too habituated to superficial contact to notice a difference.

In Brown’s developmental account, maybe around age nine or ten, he observes that certain children figure out that the most reliable route to being kept and welcomed is to make themselves easy. They settle into a role in the family — perhaps the cheerful one, perhaps the responsible one, perhaps the child who never gives anyone trouble — and they receive an immediate, durable, positive return on it. Adults relax in their presence. Other children include them. The reinforcement does not stop, and they do not see what is being exchanged for it. What that child is in fact learning, without naming it, is to trade legibility for likability (i.e., being known/read/seen is traded for the comfort of being accepted for their low-maintenance posture). They construct a self that is pleasant for others to be around, at the cost of a self anyone could come close enough to actually know. The bill on this trade does not arrive for decades. From the outside, the child looks like a successful person. From the inside, there is the slow, almost-unnoticed sense that the version of oneself everyone seems to like is the version that needs nothing — and a self that needs nothing is a self that nobody ever has reason to come closer to.

The third observation is about households. Emotional neglect, Brown points out, almost never resembles what the word neglect conjures. The houses where children grow up unheard are usually pleasant houses. They are not abusive. They have routines, holidays, family meals, and adults doing the best they know how. What is missing is not warmth and not provision; what is missing is the question. What do you actually think? What is actually going on with you? Some homes simply have no place in their conversational economy for that question. Others have a place for it, but only for one or two people in the family, and the rest of the household runs on logistics and humor and the inherited assumption that everyone is fine because no one has said otherwise. The child raised in such a house is, in Brown’s apt formulation, loved on paper and unseen in practice. By adolescence, they have stopped offering their inner life to the household. By adulthood, they have lost much of their access to it.

As a clinician, I have never had a patient come to me complaining of a deficiency of deep relationships. But I have had many patients say how satisfying it is to be heard. This may be evidence of not feeling heard or registered (as Brown puts it) in normal life. The diagnosis seems plausible. This issue is reminiscent of Socrates’s quote, “The unexamined life is not worth living.” If this is true, then the cost/consequence of closing off to one’s inner life is extreme – a life not worth living. Perhaps the reason for this extreme consequence is that insensitivity to our inner state makes us likewise go to sleep to the voice of conscience, divine guidance, and our ever-present divine companionship.

Brown posits that people develop the pathology of ignoring and silencing the inner voice in childhood as a developmental coping strategy. Perhaps this is the genesis. I suspect this may be a common result of the human condition. The need to survive in a hostile world forces a focus on external threats. The diagnosis of inner-world insensitivity rings true as a symptom/complaint and a deep cause of the commonly seen personality deficiency of the habitual compulsion/drive to please people. Self-sacrifice can result in ineffective action. When a person does not ask for what they need or cannot confront what is wrong/damaging/offensive, they will be ineffective at directing life in the way that feels right. Every person is a part of the web of life, and if they don’t listen to their inner state of distress, then, for certain, there is one person in life who is not satisfied/happy/enjoying life as it is. In other words, a life entirely of self-sacrifice does not satisfy the command to love one’s neighbor as oneself.

If all are living only to satisfy the other, then no one is satisfied. But this contradicts Jesus’ command to be the greatest in the kingdom, which is to be the servant of all. This paradox resolves when we realize that if we serve as God wants us to serve others, then each of us is serving properly, and denying service in excessive, deficient, or improper ways. The key is to serve, but serve rightly.

*** The problem with not listening to the Holy Spirit’s voice is that it informs us of God’s feelings/desires/optimum outcome of the current moment/situation. If there are issues with how I am being treated, and I am not speaking my mind, not risking rejection, not advocating for righteousness, then I am not serving my fellow man with hearty counsel. I can’t make the world better for me if I don’t ask or take action to make changes toward God’s optimum. Expecting that prayer alone will change the situation is to expect God to do the work of man. God’s work is to compute the trajectory of the entirety of life, and our job is to 1) pray to authorize Him to act and speak in our work and world, 2) mediate to listen/hear His voice, and 3) act on His counsel. Reading what other people are thinking/feeling is the more obvious and accessible input, given that it involves physical cues in words, tone, facial expressions, rewards, and punishments. But if we are not listening internally to what we want and need, we miss the leading of our own physiology and the still small voice of the Holy Spirit. This can lead to exhaustion, dissatisfaction, and a lack of depth in life, which ultimately can lead to physical complaints, and they come to see me as a doctor to fix them. The complaint is real, but beneath it lies the long, quiet exhaustion of having been polite and submitting to the other’s needs, and of being deaf to the Holy Spirit for years. This can be disguised as service, but in fact it is the opposite.***

Brown’s prescription, finally, is also right as far as it goes. The people who actually emerge from this kind of loneliness do not, on his observation, do so through grand reinvention. They begin instead with a single relationship, on a single low-stakes matter, by venturing one slightly more honest answer than they ordinarily would, and watching the other person’s response. The response is informative either way. Some relationships, Brown notes, are quietly built on the agreement that neither party will ever require deep candor from the other, and those relationships will not survive the moment one party deviates from the agreement; that loss is real, but it is also a way of seeing more clearly which relationships had been carrying real weight all along. What endures is usually a few people, sometimes only one, sometimes a person who, it now becomes apparent, has been quietly hoping for years that the other would speak more truthfully and did not know how to invite it.

The question Brown stops at

This is the point at which I want to add something rather than push back.

Brown’s article is honest in a way most secular writing on loneliness is not. He does not pretend that the volume problem is the real problem. He does not promise that an app or a club or a self-improvement regimen will fix it. He names what is actually missing — the presence of a person who registers the inner life, who notices when something said on one occasion is still going on under the surface a few days later, who does not need a crisis to ask how the other is really doing — and he is right that the absence of that figure, more than the absence of social contact, is what the data on chronic loneliness is actually tracking.

But Brown stops, I think, one question short of where the diagnosis presses.

Why does the loving, ordinary, reasonably functional household so reliably produce adults whose social worlds appear full while their inner worlds appear empty? Brown answers: because the household lacks the conversational register for the question that matters. That is true. But it is a description of the symptom, not of the cause. Why does it lack the register? Why do even loving parents, doing the best they know how, fail so reliably to produce children who feel known? Why does Brown’s diagnosis fit so many millions of people in homes that the parents themselves would describe as functional and warm?

The answer the Christian tradition has offered for two thousand years is that human beings, including loving ones, have a corrupted capacity to see one another. The Fall did not abolish love within families; it limited the range of what love within families can do. The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? (Jeremiah 17:9). The verse is usually read as an indictment of the wicked. It is more honestly read as a description of the universal predicament. Even the people we love, we do not, finally, know. Even ourselves, we do not, finally, know. The capacity to be a fully adequate witness for another person — to carry forward, days later, what they confided earlier, to ask the follow-up question, to hold what they actually think — is limited, in every household, in every marriage, in every friendship, even the best ones.

Brown’s prescription — find one person who can do this for you — is real, and it works to the extent that the one person you find has sufficient capacity to do it. But that capacity is finite. The one person can die. The one person can move. The one person can be tired on the day you needed the follow-up question. The one person can, eventually, fail you, not from malice but from being a creature in the same predicament you are.

This is not a counsel of despair. It is the observation that horizontal witnessing, however valuable, is not the bottom of the matter. There is a deeper question Brown does not quite ask: is there anywhere a Witness whose capacity is not finite, who does not forget, does not move, does not get tired on the wrong day, does not finally fail?

The Christian answer is yes, and the answer reorders the rest of the question.

The Witness that comes first

O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. — Psalm 139:1-4

Read that slowly. The Psalmist is not asking to be known. The Psalmist is already known. The knowing is in the past tense — thou hast searched me. The knowing is total — every thought, every word, every path, every lying down. The knowing is interior in a way no horizontal witness can match — afar off, before the thought has formed in language. The knowing is unembarrassed by darkness — yea, the darkness hideth not from thee (verse 12). The knowing is older than the person — for thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb (verse 13).

This is not poetry merely. The biblical witness is consistent and not subtle: the believer is fully known, prior to any horizontal relationship that may or may not develop the capacity for partial knowing. The very hairs of your head are all numbered (Matthew 10:30). Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee (Jeremiah 1:5). Then shall I know even as also I am known (1 Corinthians 13:12).

This changes what is happening when a person sits on the balcony with forty birthday messages and feels invisible. It is true, in one sense, that nobody who sent those messages knows her. It is also true, in a deeper sense, that the One who made her knows her completely, has always known her, knew her in her mother’s womb, and knows the thought that has not yet formed into language as she sits with the phone in her hand. The horizontal absence that Brown rightly diagnoses is real. The vertical Presence is also real, prior, and not contingent on the development of any one human relationship.

People who know — really know, not as theological furniture but as lived foundation — that they are already known by God become, in my pastoral observation, dramatically more capable of being known by other human beings. The terror of legibility, which Brown rightly identifies as what drives the trade of legibility for likability in childhood, is partly the terror that the real self will be seen and rejected. If the real self has already been seen by Someone whose seeing is total, and the response of that Someone is not rejection but love and pursuit, then the stakes of horizontal legibility drop dramatically. You can risk a small, low-stakes piece of honesty in front of a friend — admitting you found a difficult conversation harder than you said you did, naming a disappointment you had been pretending not to feel — because the worst-case outcome of that risk, being unknown by that particular friend forever, is no longer the foundational fact of your existence. The foundational fact is that you are already known, and loved, and held, by the One whose witnessing is the ground under all other witnessing.

The false self that has to die

Brown’s developmental account — the early-childhood exchange of one’s deeper self for the more easily acceptable surface — describes, in secular psychological language, what the contemplative Christian tradition has called the formation of the false self. Thomas Merton wrote about this at length. So did Henri Nouwen. So, four centuries earlier, did John of the Cross.

The false self is the self assembled under conditions of relational scarcity, made of compensations and survival strategies, calibrated to remain acceptable to whichever caregivers were available. This is significant in that it has done real work in keeping the person alive in a household where the inner life had no welcome — but it is not the self God made. The self God made is the true self, and the true self has been there all along, behind the compensations, recognized by God before it was visible to anyone else.

The Christian gospel, in its anthropological form, is that the false self does not have to keep running the life. Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new (2 Corinthians 5:17). Paul’s old man and new man language is not a metaphor for moral improvement. It is a description of an exchange — the false self is laid down, the true self is raised. This is not therapy. It is more radical than therapy. Therapy at its best can help a person see the false self for what it is and grieve what was lost in its formation. The gospel offers a death and a resurrection — the false self does not have to be incrementally renovated; it can be put down, and a self older and truer than the false self can be received.

Brown does not have language for this exchange. The closest he gets is his observation that recognizing the loneliness is, in the short term, worse than not recognizing it — the in-between period of two or three years during which a person knows exactly what is missing but has not yet found it. The Christian tradition has a name for that period, also.

The dark night and the gospel meeting

John of the Cross called it the dark night of the soul. It is the period in which the false-self compensations have lost their power to satisfy, but the true self has not yet been received in its place. It is, as Brown describes it, a different and lonelier kind of solitude than what came before, because the previous loneliness at least had the cover of unconsciousness. Now the person sees, and cannot unsee.

This is not a problem to solve away. It is, in the contemplative tradition, the moment when the gospel meets a person at depth. When the false-self machinery has lost its grip, but the new identity has not yet been fully received, the soul is in a peculiar kind of openness. The horizontal witnesses Brown rightly recommends are part of what comes through that openness — but so, more fundamentally, is the discovery that the One who has known the person all along is present in the openness itself. The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit (Psalm 34:18).

In Christ in Gethsemane, we have the canonical image of this. He is alone with the cup. The disciples, whom he asked to watch, are asleep. The horizontal witness has failed. And yet he is not alone — not as I will, but as thou wilt — because the vertical witness is present. The Father is the one who knows him at the depth at which the disciples cannot. The hour is endured because the deeper knowing holds when the surface knowing does not.

What I want to say to anyone in the in-between period Brown describes — the lonelier-than-before stretch — is this: the work you are doing is not arbitrary. The willingness to see what is missing, and to refuse to numb it back into invisibility, is the work that makes you available for the witness you have always had and may not have known you had. The horizontal witnesses Brown rightly recommends will come, in their measure — perhaps a partner, perhaps a sibling, perhaps a friend whose depth you had never had occasion to discover. They are real, and they matter. But they will not be the foundation. The foundation is older than they are.

Crescendo

Brown’s article works toward, and stops at, the threshold of a verse. The verse is Paul’s, in 1 Corinthians 13, the chapter on love. He has been describing love that is patient, kind, not envious, not puffed up. He has said love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Then he reaches for the eschatological horizon:

For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. — 1 Corinthians 13:12

Even as also I am known. That clause is the answer to Brown’s question. The future hope of the Christian is not merely to know other persons fully, but to know them in the way one is already known by the Person who made them. The full mutual knowing is the eschaton. It is what marriage at its best gestures toward without ever quite achieving. It is what fellowship at its best gestures toward without ever quite achieving. It is what every birthday balcony’s forty messages cannot deliver. And it is coming.

Already, in the present age, the believer is known. I am known. Paul does not say I will be known; he says I am. The full mutual face-to-face knowing waits for the resurrection, but the asymmetric knowing — God’s knowing of the believer — is present tense, already in force, the foundation under everything else.

This is what I would offer Brown, if he ever read this, and what I want to offer the fellowship to sit with. He has diagnosed the loneliness clearly. He has prescribed the right horizontal medicine — start telling the truth in one specific relationship, accept the clarifications, and find the few. The medicine is real. But the foundation under the medicine, the thing that makes the medicine survivable when the one person you found turns out to be tired on the wrong day, is the prior fact that you were already known before you ever risked telling anyone the truth about yourself.

The forty messages on the balcony are not the bottom of the matter. The bottom is that the One who made Maya was sitting with her on the balcony, in the only sense of with that finally holds. Brown is right that she should risk telling the truth in one specific relationship. He stops one move short of the deeper invitation: she does not have to manufacture the courage out of nothing. She is held by a Witness whose holding does not depend on her becoming legible to anyone else first.

That changes what telling the truth is. It changes what loneliness is. It changes what known means.


Sources

Justin Brown, The loneliness of being liked but never known, VegOut, May 5, 2026. (Original URL on the VegOut website.)

Internal Renaissance Ministries references: founders_vision/260430_three_level_stronghold_framework.md (the patterns established in childhood as quiet strongholds); CFE_christos_fellowship_essays/essays/260506-loosening-the-spell-lifting-the-yoke.md (companion essay on Stephen Grosz and the work of being seen and held).

Scripture references in this essay are King James Version: Psalm 139:1-4, 12, 13; Psalm 34:18; Jeremiah 1:5; Jeremiah 17:9; Matthew 10:30; 1 Corinthians 13:12; 2 Corinthians 5:17.

Contemplative-tradition references for the false-self / true-self frame: Thomas Merton, New Seeds of Contemplation; Henri Nouwen, The Inner Voice of Love; John of the Cross, The Dark Night of the Soul. These are not engaged in detail in the essay above but are the tradition the language draws from.